[QUOTE=Dunnig Kruger;76435666
Your can have more than one "first love". Your first true love will probably be the first man you have intercourse with.
Do you think that you are attractive? Do you think that you are a special person? If not, we need to work on boosting your self-esteem - a lot.
If you're confident you're attractive you'll get a real boyfriend easily enough.
You're 19. Nobody needs to ever know anything about this. You're an adult now. Your own personal affairs are very much your own personal affairs and therefore none of anybody else's business.
Sorry I forgot to reply to this part. Perhaps you're right but I've been in this relationship for a long time so I feel like this is my first love. It was so strong and do you know that feeling you get at the start of a relationship and then it slowly dies down? This feeling never died down and I still feel the same love.
Im humble lol but I think I'm attractive, guys will look at me and small talk sometimes. I could tell him this and he would get a bit jealous and low key annoyed but would still be fine, and then when we argue he'll bring that up for some reason and tell me I should have gone and had sex with them or something really childish along those lines. All the guys that I live by are as*holes
You're right though, this is gonna stay with me for a long time and I prefer not to tell anyone.