I fancied my ex as a person, even before we got together. Didn't fancy anything particular about his looks. It was mostly his confidence and personality, and he did have a nice face as well.
The relationship was great but during sex I was never turned on by him. I've been with other guys and have been sexually attracted to them. But not this guy. I would still enjoy sex though and want to have it because I enjoyed the intimacy but it would never do anything for me. I also never finished which I think was probably a bit sh*t for him. But it wasn't that he was bad in bed, I just wasn't turned on by him really. I never really wanted to rip his clothes off or anything like that.
It's confusing though because there was nothing wrong with his body, it was just normal, but there was also nothing I was crazy about.
I definitely didn't just see him in a platonic way either.
Anyway the relationship ended because of other reasons and it was him that dumped me. Decent breakup, nothing bad, it was just he was moving away.
I'm still in love with him and I would love to be together with him again. And I know he wants to give things another go as well.
I'm over all my other exes. Some before him and one that I was kind of seeing after him. But I just can't shake him out of my mind.
But the reason why I'm not letting myself get back with him is because I think it's a bit dishonest if I'm not sexually attracted to him. Can it be a proper relationship?