So I have a boyfriend, we started off as friends and then i kinda had a crush on him and sensed that he did to and then he had a move on me and you kinda get the picture. Anyway turns out im not actually 100% sure i like him as anything more than a friend, like we were great before, now he doesn't try to meet up with me or speak to me much and tbh hes kind of annoying me, i feel like im making all the effort and yet hes the one supposedly in love with me. But i still really like him as a friend and he dont wanna hurt his feelings and he also consistently tells me he doesnt know what he would do without out me as he feels like he has no one, he also is majorly depressed and has attempted suicide in the past.
I feel like a really bad human and like im leading him on but im not sure how to get out of it and wtf to do. Like i still kinda like him in that way but also kinda dont.
On a side note which is kinda irrelevant i also keep having dreams of ****ing girls (im also a girl) and have a major crush on zendaya. I kinda wanna explore this as a thing cos who knows. plus im going to uni (fingers crossed) next year and he isnt so it would be long distance but he wants to try
Oh and he keeps telling me hes thinking bout our future together pls pls pls help. i dont think he would forgive me if i broke up with him.