I feel embarrased and slightly ashamed asking this really. I was in a relationship with a girl for well over two years, and we broke up June 22 (she left me for somebody else).
I developed a huge obsession with her new boyfriend (the one she cheated on me with). I kept stalking his youtube channel, facebook, twitter, blog. I was absolutely obsessed with who he was, what he was like. I also keep stalking her, my ex, and her family, keeping tabs on what they're up to and all that.
This sounds so creepy when I say it but actually a lot of it is out of genuine curiosity. There is nothing malicious. I wouldnt hurt them because thats not what Im interested in. Alot of it is shock; I am still in shock from finding out that I was cheated on. I have not stalked either of their accounts for a few days. This is pretty big for me considering I was stalking them daily throughout july and august. Ive only stopped because this is from me forcing myself not to. The temptation just seems to be getting worse and worse. Ive got to the point where Im scared of myself- Do I actually have an addiction, in terms of the clinical sense, and what if I never lose the temptation to stalk them both, or atleast dont lose it for a really long time? What if Im going to be thinking about them for ages and ages? Its like they are in control of my life.
By the way, I have not contacted either of them and they havent to me. I mean nothing to any of them, Ive just become somebody they knew at one point and now dont.
I feel broken and pathetic. Please no judgements. Just really need help before this gets to the point of actual stalking, as in following them, things like that.