When i got my a level results i didnt get into my firm but i did get into my insurance. However my parents and family didn't want me to go to a 'rubbish' university so they forced me to take a gap year and reapply for 2019 entry. I didn't want to take a gap year as i knew i would find it difficult to cope for so long without routine.
Ive been applying for jobs for over a month now. Ive sent out at least 100 applications and for some of them i did get interviews but then i didn't hear back from them. My family constantly tells me im wasting my life, even though im trying so hard to get a job. I dont have any experience which is probably why im struggling so much.I applied to volunteer at oxfam for some experience but they never got back to me. I also cant go travelling as i dont have any money.
Ive been trying to keep myself occupied by learning french, how to program and going for walks but i still rarely get out the house. Im starting to feel very 'depressed' and im struggling to get out of bed without any purpose in life. Its also getting very lonely being home alone for so long everyday and i dont have any friends i can meet up with. I feel like a burden on my parents as im almost 19 and cant help them financially.
This is only the first month of my gap year and im scared that things wont improve.
This was mostly just to vent but if anyone has any advice or ideas on what i can do i would appreciate it greatly !