I constantly think of women and sex, and its starting to affect my life.
I know its normal for guys to think about it, but my trouble is im ALWAYS thinking about it, even to the point I neglect things im supposed to do, or getting myself into debt in the hope of getting some action..
Ive never had a girlfriend, and I can't seem to get one. Not only am I ugly and fat, im shy around new people and never get time (or like) to go out.
Because it doesn't come naturally to me, I literally spend hours a day on escort sites, or adult model sites trying to talk people into 'a photoshoot' involving 'adult' work..sometimes I can be on my phone in bed for 2-3hrs before I realise the time and get up. I have tons of stuff that need doing but this past couple of weeks ive been neglecting everything to look for girls wanting to earn some spare cash meeting guys, spending hours online looking (just realised ive spent about 4hrs already tonight looking at escorts and adult models and I only got home from work 5hrs ago!)
The other trouble is, I can't afford it either really, but somehow the chance to be with a naked girl seems to win out. I have bills over the next two months totaling at least £1000 to find money for. I have £3500 on a credit card to pay off. Yet im considering booking escorts for £250 over the next couple of weeks, and trying to find someone to meet when I go to London next week.
Going to the doctors isnt really an option, and I feel I cant say anything to the few friends I have. Anyone have any ideas what I can do to get out of this rut?!