Okay, well, this is it, I guess.
He took it very well. He wasn't happy, obviously, but he didn't get angry or make me feel bad about it whatsoever. I explained to him the things that my mum and you guys have said to me and he simply said he understood. He seemed quite upset with himself for messing it up but I told him not to beat himself up over it too much - hope he sticks to that.
He said that he still cared about me a lot despite everything and that I can always come to him if I need it, so I told him the same. With that we agreed to remain good friends, which is so good because he's my best friend I think lol. We kissed one final time - gonna keep our distance physically from now on. Not sure how we'll do that yet, as I still feel very much attracted to him, but I hope that'll fade over time and we can just be close friends
After all this we talked about the past eight months for a while. He remarked it was like a funeral - remembering our relationship and its highs and lows while both crying a little lol. The funny thing is I felt closer to him today than I've felt in over a month, which makes me think this was the right decision. I actually feel surprisingly good right now, it obviously hurts but it's okay, in a way.
So I guess this is gonna be the end of this thread (although I feel like I've said that like five times already but whatever), but thanks to all of you who've been helping me over the course of it. I've said this many times before but it really does mean a lot to me and I don't think I could've made it without you all!
Oh, my dad's pretty chuffed. He's gone back to being convinced this was a phase and I won't be attracted to a guy ever again lol. Imagine your son going through a pretty rough breakup with his boyfriend of 8 months and the first thing you think is "Hell yeah, maybe he'll stop being gay!!" I feel tempted to go and sleep around for a bit just to see the look on my dad's face as yet another guy walks through our house on a saturday morning. I probably won't though, I'm just a bit annoyed with him haha.