When most people hear the word " mum" they think of a loving and caring woman who took care of a child from birth with great affection. My mother was none of those things.
I can still remember when I was a little girl, no more than 9. I was hiding in the bathroom while petting my beloved cat Alexandra as I cried. Just as usually my mother began shouting, screaming and hitting me as soon as we got back home. "Clean faster," "You did this wrong," she would say. This was a daily occurrence and made me hate her to the point of wanting to kill her from a very young age. She was letting her anger from her job onto me.
On the other hand, she did attempt to get me educated. Every once in a while she would sit me down for a few hours, which felt like an eternity and force me to study things I didn't even need to know. That really made me hate school and education in general. Some of you might be thinking that, oh she was trying to make sure I have a better future but no. Every once in a while she would tell me that I am to get a good job when I grow up and pay for everything for her because she raised me. She still goes about it to this day but now that I'm 17 she also started to tell me to move the **** out and get a job. Began when I was 16. I do plan to leave as soon as I can but I got to live with her till I'm 18 because I need ID and I also need the Brexit thing to get sorted. She ruined my education and doesn't want me to continue it.
This was way before I was 9 (probably 1-3) but I remember how she left me with my dad who was a huge **** just like her. She told me about how when she decided to come and get me I had dirt under my nails. my hair was like a net and I looked like I haven't been bathed for months. Nowadays if I disobey her she tells me to go back to my dad (no passport so even if he wasn't a huge ******* that wouldn't be possible.)
My mum never stops complaining. I babysit her 1-year-old child 24/7. If I try to leave the house for a walk or something she will scream and shout at me. Sometimes she starts shouting "GET THE **** OUT" till I do. Happened today but most of the time is "don't you read the house, I need to rest."
My mum basically dates around a lot, she got a few guys at the moment and often meets with her *****y friend. They go to a party for what's supposed to be a few hours but I'm lucky if they are back the next day by noon. All she does all day long is text her boyfriends.
Let's talk about money. She spends nothing on me. I got one pair of pants that I stole from her and some 3+-year-old shirts and a 1 4-year-old pair of boots that I got as a gift from someone else. I steal from her wallet to buy food and have done so since I was young cuz she won't feed me. She keeps going on rants about she will take everything I have away etc. Like *****, I steal money from you to buy myself food. What you gonna take away?
Oh yeah, if this wasn't clear enough let me let you in on a little something. Her ex-boyfriend's dog attacked me many times. I have scars on my hand and arm. Had to go to the hospital because I needed stitches. It hurt so much. I still have a huge scar. Basically, the dog would "freak out" and become really aggressive from time to time and has decided to make me it's prey. It tried to kill me. If I didn't run for my life and used my arm to cover my neck and keep the dog's teeth I would have been dead.
Her ex-boyfriend who we lived with wasn't any better. He would turn the internet off for me, ban me from eating certain things in the house, screamed at me, insulted me, threatened me with his dog and even played loud music at 3 am when I had school. My mum said nothing. I had to clean the whole house and didn't have much time for school. I was their maid.
I am thinking of writing a whole essay on how she was *****y towards me.
I think she was being abusive towards me. Even nowadays I still find it hard to talk back to her. I have been getting better at it, I will be 18 in October and will finally be free again.