Sleep. Or the lack there of. Thatās whatās on my mind.
That and the loneliness that sometimes haunts me along with the mental stress of knowing that there are people out there being neglected and I donāt know how to be helpful towards them or if Iāll even be able to do something worth anything to anyone. Not to mention the anxiety and mental instability that has slightly taken over due to an unhealthy relationship in the past and a struggle to slowly improve myself mind so that Iām effected by this less and less. Which also harms my selfesteem as it causes me to feel inferior and that despite the fact that I am quite literally the most stubborn person I know and that I would actually travel any distance just to make someone happy for a day, I donāt ever feel that I could deserve someone that Iād like to be with anymore. Nor do I believe that anyone with a decent personality would ever consider me to be an option thatās even worth their time.
Oh, and Iām hungry. A small snack and sleep would be nice. The thought of not thinking is also nice.