Need advice on how to get over a bad fight with my partner, struggling to forgive him

i don't want to sound rude but your so mean to your boyfriend and hes been there for you for so long. don't you feel guilty and sad about it? what if he died tomorrow can you imagine how heartbroken that would be...stop fighting!

Honestly, this does not sound like a healthy relationship. Both of you clearly have personal issues you need to resolve. Your infidelity has led him to have serious trust issues, resulting in possessive behaviour from your boyfriend.

I suggest both of you put this relationship on hold until you are both mentally mature enough to handle a relationship.

I do, but I have little self control at times. And it's impossible to completely avoid arguments in a relationship.

As everyone has pointed out and you've continually denied, you have a lot of severe mental health problems/disorders, most notably NPD. Nothing like this will ever stop happening until you admit to yourself that you need to get help for these problems and get it. But that's never gonna happen, so there's no solution I'm afraid.

he does have mh problems but you dont need to be mean to him about it. theres still hope that he will realise the good around him.

As everyone has pointed out and you've continually denied, you have a lot of severe mental health problems/disorders, most notably NPD. Nothing like this will ever stop happening until you admit to yourself that you need to get help for these problems and get it. But that's never gonna happen, so there's no solution I'm afraid.

it is hard because sometimes when you show anger it means you care but hes been there for you through all your depressive events/break downs. you need to appreciate him otherwise you will lose him for real. i know it must be difficult cos its hard to think right during depression but find your love for him and collect your thoughts

How does hitting you in the face dislocate your shoulder?

You need him for your recovery, by the sounds of it. I think a honest and open conversation is needed for you both to get over your resentments.

Long story short, recently my life spiraled a bit out of control. The usual stuff, meaning spending way too much money on all sorts of useless crap, too much partying, and cheating. All this led to a pretty bad argument between me and my boyfriend. At one point when he was trying to stop me from leaving the house, he ended up hitting me in the face and dislocating my shoulder.

He apologised, of course. I'm not mad at him anymore, to be perfectly honest, I know I deserved it. But for some crazy reason, my brain has now developed this crazy aversion towards him, it's come to the point where I don't even want him to touch me. I just find myself avoiding him all the time. He suddenly reminds me of someone I hate, which is plain stupid and illogical. I need advice on how to put our relationship back on track.

Yeah, I'm trying, but it's difficult. It's like my brain now associates him with something bad and doesn't want him around.

Wasn't trying to be mean. Was trying to be blunt because people being nice to him about it never seemed to work.

I will give you his number, you can ask him. 😂

But I don't know what to say. I already accepted his apology. I just feel like I don't want to spend time with him anymore...

Long story short, recently my life spiraled a bit out of control. The usual stuff, meaning spending way too much money on all sorts of useless crap, too much partying, and cheating. All this led to a pretty bad argument between me and my boyfriend. At one point when he was trying to stop me from leaving the house, he ended up hitting me in the face and dislocating my shoulder.

He apologised, of course. I'm not mad at him anymore, to be perfectly honest, I know I deserved it. But for some crazy reason, my brain has now developed this crazy aversion towards him, it's come to the point where I don't even want him to touch me. I just find myself avoiding him all the time. He suddenly reminds me of someone I hate, which is plain stupid and illogical. I need advice on how to put our relationship back on track.