Hey so
I few years ago I had a friend (I am a girl btw) we were really good friends, almost TOO GOOD if you know what I'm saying, she is a girl as well. We got on really well, we were in a friendship group that wasn't very nice so we started reaching out to find some new friends, the problem is I had really bad social anxiety that at that point was not yet diagnosed. (It is now.) We met some lovely people and my 'friend' got on with them really well, but I was too shy to talk to them. I ended up convincing myself she would be better off without me, and that I would be better off were I was even though that was a lie. I wanted her to be happy and I was holding her back. Ok so flash forward a few years time, and we never talk, but I am lonely and getting bullied by our old friendship group, and the hardest thing is she thinks I hate her and left her for no reason, and she never knew I had a crush on her. Although it was kind of obvious. She is bi as well as me. We are leaving the school soon and she just put up one of those anonymous post things on insta, I want to write something showing her I don't hate her that makes her wonder if it's me, but doesn't directly show it's me. What do I put help. I cant go back to her now, because she is always with this other girl, but I will be hsplt knowing that she knows I don't hate her. I know it was a long time ago, but she was the only one I could talk to my anxiety and depression about and who understood it, my parents don't really understand, i'm getting a fresh start this year so hopefully everything should be better. Anyway what should I out that's not too obvious.