I'm at SOAS and I'm literally miserable. I'm a second year student. I dont enjoy my course or my time here at all.
There were a couple of incidents with a guy (whom I knew since 2017) which made me extremely miserable. I ve noticed that ever since his departure from my life, my health (got back and neck problems and ocassional issues with legs), my performance and grades have drastically fallen. I managed to get a 2.1 overall last year but this year its dreadful. Due to my physical and emotional problems, I'm at either 2.2 or a third. There are 2 modules which I'm scared of. I think I might fail those modules.
I had friends in my first course I did in early 2017 which was a short one but for the degree course, I virtually have no friends. Just people I talk to but not really friends. It's also difficult to integrate as the atmosphere is centred around groupism. My course also lacks a large student body so it's even more difficult.
Overall I hate my time and I feel really isolated and lonely. This has magnified since that guy left. And he was very dear to me.
I'm a tier 4 student so it's difficult for me to take a gap year as it means I would need to redo my visa and thats a tedious process.
I dont know what to do. Any advice?