cant let go of childhood for uni
Im going to university this year and im terrified
Ive just taken a gap year and it was great, but this summer everythings started to go downhill
My dad got diagnosed with terminal cancer and has been estimated at less than a year
My childhood dog, whos supported me through all the bad times, is deteriorating and also has probably less than a year
My house will probably be sold after my dad goes
Ive drifted from my friends
I have social anxiety and know i will find it hard to make friends at uni
Im more depressed than ever, im awake for no more than about ten hours a day
Im excited for uni but absolutely terrified of the loneliness, and now itll be ten times worse knowing i dont have a strong home base, especially when im on the other side of the country
Im not ready for my childhood to end, im not ready to be active again and having to be an adult when ive never felt more useless in my life, i cant even be awake for more than four hours without napping accidentally, no therapy or drugs have ever helped
This is half me getting my feelings out, and half me wanting to know if anyone else has started uni whilst life is falling apart/whilst having social anxiety/whilst being incredibly lonely/having problems letting go of childhood
Ive just taken a gap year and it was great, but this summer everythings started to go downhill
My dad got diagnosed with terminal cancer and has been estimated at less than a year
My childhood dog, whos supported me through all the bad times, is deteriorating and also has probably less than a year
My house will probably be sold after my dad goes
Ive drifted from my friends
I have social anxiety and know i will find it hard to make friends at uni
Im more depressed than ever, im awake for no more than about ten hours a day
Im excited for uni but absolutely terrified of the loneliness, and now itll be ten times worse knowing i dont have a strong home base, especially when im on the other side of the country
Im not ready for my childhood to end, im not ready to be active again and having to be an adult when ive never felt more useless in my life, i cant even be awake for more than four hours without napping accidentally, no therapy or drugs have ever helped
This is half me getting my feelings out, and half me wanting to know if anyone else has started uni whilst life is falling apart/whilst having social anxiety/whilst being incredibly lonely/having problems letting go of childhood
Which university are you going to?
Original post by Anonymous
Im going to university this year and im terrified
Ive just taken a gap year and it was great, but this summer everythings started to go downhill
My dad got diagnosed with terminal cancer and has been estimated at less than a year
My childhood dog, whos supported me through all the bad times, is deteriorating and also has probably less than a year
My house will probably be sold after my dad goes
Ive drifted from my friends
I have social anxiety and know i will find it hard to make friends at uni
Im more depressed than ever, im awake for no more than about ten hours a day
Im excited for uni but absolutely terrified of the loneliness, and now itll be ten times worse knowing i dont have a strong home base, especially when im on the other side of the country
Im not ready for my childhood to end, im not ready to be active again and having to be an adult when ive never felt more useless in my life, i cant even be awake for more than four hours without napping accidentally, no therapy or drugs have ever helped
This is half me getting my feelings out, and half me wanting to know if anyone else has started uni whilst life is falling apart/whilst having social anxiety/whilst being incredibly lonely/having problems letting go of childhood
Ive just taken a gap year and it was great, but this summer everythings started to go downhill
My dad got diagnosed with terminal cancer and has been estimated at less than a year
My childhood dog, whos supported me through all the bad times, is deteriorating and also has probably less than a year
My house will probably be sold after my dad goes
Ive drifted from my friends
I have social anxiety and know i will find it hard to make friends at uni
Im more depressed than ever, im awake for no more than about ten hours a day
Im excited for uni but absolutely terrified of the loneliness, and now itll be ten times worse knowing i dont have a strong home base, especially when im on the other side of the country
Im not ready for my childhood to end, im not ready to be active again and having to be an adult when ive never felt more useless in my life, i cant even be awake for more than four hours without napping accidentally, no therapy or drugs have ever helped
This is half me getting my feelings out, and half me wanting to know if anyone else has started uni whilst life is falling apart/whilst having social anxiety/whilst being incredibly lonely/having problems letting go of childhood
i started university when my grandad had stage 4 lung cancer, i'd been watching him slowly die for over a year at that point, i also lost my dad and my dog within 3 days of each other as a child so i know how much it sucks the position you're in. death and loss can make you feel like your childhood is gone but it doesn't all have to be like that. Moving away helped me deal with my grief better in a way because i could be a bit selfish i suppose and the distance helped me deal with it.
it's perfectly okay to fall apart for a while but life goes on around you so you eventually have to try to pull yourself through somehow.
I started Uni with extreme social anxiety and depression. Granted, I didn't have so much on my plate; my parents are both relatively healthy (I really do hope that everything goes as well as possible for you!), but my family life still was (and isn't) great. My parents have been threatening divorce pretty much since I was born, argue at the top of their lungs every waking hour. My mother was the extreme coddling type, which lead to my social anxiety and lack of adulting skill; as you say, I still often don't feel as though I can function as a "proper" adult, I seem to be quite naive compared to others' my age and I enjoyed my comfortable home life far more than was healthy. My dad was distant and we spoke maybe once every other day or so.
I was very sure that I wasn't going to do well socially at Uni. The thought of having to socialise weighed on my mind a good 5-6 months before I'd even started. In secondary school, I'd struggled even to ask the person sitting next to me for a ruler; I couldn't imagine making friends that easily. As generic as this piece of advice is, it's the truest thing you'll hear about Uni: everybody is in the same boat. I think that when you get to Uni, you'll find that the atmosphere is very different. EVERYONE wants to talk and get along. Where throughout my school years, I was painfully reserved, never spoke unless spoken too, started sweating when asked a question etc, during the first week of Uni, it was as though all of that had alleviated. I could talk to people very easily and now I find myself in a stable group of friends.
I think it's just a matter of time, and going with the flow. Once you get to Uni, you will open up quite naturally. But you have to make sure that you take the opportunity. Don't sit there FEELING like you could talk to the person next to you and not actually do it, else you're pushing yourself further into a hole. Just start with a quick "Hi, what course are you doing? Are you a first/second year?" etc, and trust me, it WILL go well.
As weird as it sounds, I think that you are in a good position right now, moreso than most other people. I'm sorry for what you are going through, but you'll need to start anew many, many times in life and you're in a good spot right now to do so. Many of my friends had so much drama and baggage to carry on with them through Uni. Right now, it's a blank slate. You can do whatever you want with your life right now. Uni is the perfect place to do that. I drifted from my friends too, to this day I have little to no contact with my secondary school buddies, but that in itself opened up so many doors for me at Uni.
The thing about Uni is that really, we're all kids here. Hardly anybody has a full time job, many students are still depending on their parents for funding. What's different about how we live compared to how we did in secondary school? We've moved out and we now have to cook for ourselves, but in the end we're still studying for another 3 years and although I am personally not into that scene, going out and partying. I think you'll find that your existence and who you are as a person doesn't change when you go to Uni. You can still be carefree and enjoy the things that you used to. It's just that your outlook broadens.
As for your depressive mood, I have been in and out of therapy for a few years and nothing has helped me either. Believe it or not, a single good workout can really help. The first time I hit the gym at Uni and did a proper, sweat-inducing work out, I walked out of there feeling confident. It was a very chemical thing. Weird, but it works magic. When you go to Uni, you have the opportunity to do so many things of your own accord. Motivate yourself, get a gym membership, learn how to skate, whatever you want!
Lastly, I've lived by the fact that letting go is more often than not, an amazing thing!
I was very sure that I wasn't going to do well socially at Uni. The thought of having to socialise weighed on my mind a good 5-6 months before I'd even started. In secondary school, I'd struggled even to ask the person sitting next to me for a ruler; I couldn't imagine making friends that easily. As generic as this piece of advice is, it's the truest thing you'll hear about Uni: everybody is in the same boat. I think that when you get to Uni, you'll find that the atmosphere is very different. EVERYONE wants to talk and get along. Where throughout my school years, I was painfully reserved, never spoke unless spoken too, started sweating when asked a question etc, during the first week of Uni, it was as though all of that had alleviated. I could talk to people very easily and now I find myself in a stable group of friends.
I think it's just a matter of time, and going with the flow. Once you get to Uni, you will open up quite naturally. But you have to make sure that you take the opportunity. Don't sit there FEELING like you could talk to the person next to you and not actually do it, else you're pushing yourself further into a hole. Just start with a quick "Hi, what course are you doing? Are you a first/second year?" etc, and trust me, it WILL go well.
As weird as it sounds, I think that you are in a good position right now, moreso than most other people. I'm sorry for what you are going through, but you'll need to start anew many, many times in life and you're in a good spot right now to do so. Many of my friends had so much drama and baggage to carry on with them through Uni. Right now, it's a blank slate. You can do whatever you want with your life right now. Uni is the perfect place to do that. I drifted from my friends too, to this day I have little to no contact with my secondary school buddies, but that in itself opened up so many doors for me at Uni.
The thing about Uni is that really, we're all kids here. Hardly anybody has a full time job, many students are still depending on their parents for funding. What's different about how we live compared to how we did in secondary school? We've moved out and we now have to cook for ourselves, but in the end we're still studying for another 3 years and although I am personally not into that scene, going out and partying. I think you'll find that your existence and who you are as a person doesn't change when you go to Uni. You can still be carefree and enjoy the things that you used to. It's just that your outlook broadens.
As for your depressive mood, I have been in and out of therapy for a few years and nothing has helped me either. Believe it or not, a single good workout can really help. The first time I hit the gym at Uni and did a proper, sweat-inducing work out, I walked out of there feeling confident. It was a very chemical thing. Weird, but it works magic. When you go to Uni, you have the opportunity to do so many things of your own accord. Motivate yourself, get a gym membership, learn how to skate, whatever you want!
Lastly, I've lived by the fact that letting go is more often than not, an amazing thing!
i relate so much to being awake for a few hours at a time. i sleep all day but i dont know how to stop :/ i feel like my life is going to fall apart if i don't take a nap
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