I don't believe in myself

I'm a final year medic at UCL but i'm still having thoughts i don't belong here.

I have forgotten many things from pre-clinical years and a lot of anatomy i have to keep going back and covering. I still struggle with signs unless it is obvious like wheezing or clearly audible heart murmurs. I suck at presenting. I find it difficult to do do ABGs and i need to relearn how to suture.

Yet i have passed every exam on first try and am on the 5th decile for last year.

I just feel so confused.

I'm a final year medic at UCL but i'm still having thoughts i don't belong here.

I have forgotten many things from pre-clinical years and a lot of anatomy i have to keep going back and covering. I still struggle with signs unless it is obvious like wheezing or clearly audible heart murmurs. I suck at presenting. I find it difficult to do do ABGs and i need to relearn how to suture.

Yet i have passed every exam on first try and am on the 5th decile for last year.

I just feel so confused.

Don't worry, med school isn't the end of your learning. There's still many years to gain experience and improve your clinical skills.

You will also revisit basic sciences when you do postgrad exams.

You are not expected to hold all the information from every year of medical school in your head all the time. Of course things will fall out of your head, that is 100% normal.

The problem with comparing yourself to foundation doctors is that there are lots of things you can ONLY learn by doing the job. Confidence AKA bullsh*tting is definitely one of them. You probably have more clinical knowledge than the F1s, it just doesn't feel that way. You will learn what you need to when you get there. You can't fast-track it, you can only get to the next step by doing it.

Just keep going, you are passing your exams and doing fine.

if F1s have the same or less clinical knowledge than me, i am rly confused how they man the wards and do nights when it is just them and they don't know the key things about many conditions

I've managed to get to my final year but i still have imposter syndrome and i look at the FY1 and FY2 doctors and can't see how i can ever get on their level.

I've been offered a job as a HCA but i'm too nervous to take it while being on firms because i don't know if i'd be capable.

I've managed to get to my final year but i still have imposter syndrome and i look at the FY1 and FY2 doctors and can't see how i can ever get on their level.

I'm too apologetic and too nice, and i don't believe in myself as much as i should.

I don't know how to work on it this Would love some advice


Hey if it make you feel better, im just the same!! i feel like i lack a lot of common sense and just too nice to be taken seriously.


youre not alone x