hey
i'm in year 13, studying politics, french and spanish. last year i studied philosophy but chose to switch to spanish this year (and cram the course into 1 year, which is fine). unfortunately this means i can't apply to uni this year because 1. i can't get a predicted grade for spanish and 2. i've left it really late and everyone's applying right now.
i thought i was fine with my decision to apply next year once i have my grades and take a gap year, but talking it over with my family i feel awful for having to take one, even though i don't regret taking spanish over philosophy at all. i'm just not sure if it was worth losing a year of my life for. (which as i type it sounds really stupid, but to me it really feels like taking a gap year atm is pointless and i hate not having anything to fill that space)
my senco said i could possibly go back and work at school for a year on the pastoral support team (i have some mental health training), which i'm not totally averse to but it's not ideal- and we're not sure if they'll accept someone straight from sixth form. my other option is to travel maybe? go back out to gambia? or something, but not having any concrete plans (bc i can't make any until i know if i can work in school) is terrifying.
i really just don't know what i'm doing, does anyone have advice?