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The thing is that I'm very lazy, I mean VERY lazy in terms of studying!
I promise I'm not trying to be arrogant and cocky, but I got A/A*s at GCSE doing no/little revision throughout the years, until like a day before the exam, so i've never been used to/experienced studying and revising outside of lessons for a long time frame (i.e weeks/months).
It's hard and i'm struggling to get myself to study, I always get distracted or unmotivated a short while (e.g 20 mins) after getting myself to begin hmk/revision/study and then next time I check the time, I've wasted like 5 hours and I say "oh this day is gone, i'll do it tomorrow instead" - this cycle repeats day after day and it's only getting closer to my exams....
It feels like I'm trying to study/revise for the first time in my life and I feel like I'm failing/letting down my family and myself at the end. I know I will regret it if I don't get at least A's in August and I want to study for the sake of getting high grades, it's just I can't get myself to begin and if I do, then I can't getting myself to stay studying for a decent amount of time so I can study what I intend to (e.g a chapter from chemistry).
I feel like I can only study the day/night before an exam, because somehow that gives me some unexplainable push to begin for the next day's test, but if I try to study like a week before, I can't get myself to do it. I don't know, it's hard, I don't know how I'm going to get the grades I want.