Oh I see. Yeah, that sucks - I only have one grandparent left (and she now has dementia and doesn't recognize me) but when I told her a few years ago she was almost crying and told me she'd pray for me. She actually got a psychiatrist who went to her church to see me as a 2nd opinion as my psychiatrist at the time was **** and that really helped. But I know a lot of people don't have supportive grandparents and it must be so hard, I guess like my dad or possibly even worse. Have you checked out MHSS on TSR? You might find people who can relate or give you advice there.
That's really great news about your new antidepressant!
Especially with the thoughts subsiding! And yeah, my psychiatrist has said the same thing to me, it's really horrible to hear that you may have to take it for the rest of your life especially when we're still young. But then physical problems can be llifelong too and I try not to treat mental ones differently though that is hard. But hey, my psychiatrist told me it will be for life yet I'm halfway off one of my antipsychotics so you never know.
I forgot to mention that I have to stick to a strict schedule with sleep and eating to stay well, it sounds like a silly thing but has really helped me. Yes, my medication makes me drowsy too I've found that most mental health medications have that effect (except abilify). What sort of time do you take your's? I take my evening ones about 7pm and morning at 8.30am. I've been on this combination a while so the drowsiness is no longer as bad, however, I still feel like I'm never really fully awake regardless of how long I sleep or when I take them.
Do you have friends you hang out with that you're missing out on?