Since the exams were cancelled, I've been continuing with my course, so I can be content in my completion of it, but the idea of no examinations has me quite upset. It feels a little like all of this was for nothing. I was ill the full week before my college closed so didn't even get the chance to prepare for all the closures either. I always thought I could come out of my exams knowing I tried my hardest but this uncertainty is so unnerving. Exams were always enjoyable for me, as an objective measure of achievement, but however they chose grades this year I will feel like I have not done weel due to not working hard enough, or that I don't deserve high grades due to not sitting the formal exams. My head's a little shaken by it all. I never talked to anyone in my lessons, but right now I'd much rather be in my lessons learning and continuing towards the tests. We've been told all this time of their importance and now it's gone. We have all this extra free time, but no goal to work towards.