Hi! Happy pride month<3
So I'm in a painful situation involved with romance, friendship, and hate. I had this best friend since middle school, we were the best buddies. My dumbass fell for him ever since i met him though... but he doesn't know that... So we drifted apart, according to him. He told his friend Mel, who is my close friend (she's 18, gives the best big sister advice ever) and he said "Me and her just drifted apart ever since our last big fight, things aren't the same. She always seems mad at me nowadays. Besides she's doing her own thing and focused on that Isaiah guy" His girlfriend that he was together with for 6 months broke up with him 3 weeks ago. You see , we were fine 3 weeks ago. We stopped talking like 6 days ago, so i don't understand still... why he has told his friends who he barely met this year, and it seems like everyone else except me??? I've known him and been friends with him longer than any of his 'close girl friends' he made this year. We were the best of friends and i told him things i've never, ever told anyone and he couldn't tell me? Like i get it, it was hard for him, but 3 weeks ? He still hasn't told me , i had to hear it from someone else. Also , a week ago was my birthday.
weeks before my birthday he always said "oh get ready for your birthday spam, I am going to post you so damn much!" and i was so excited:,)) because he put all this effort to post his gali and daniel and julian, like endless pictures and videos ! It's just friendship tradition.
My birthday, he texts me at 12 saying "happy birthday best friend!!!!" and some other stuff and he posts 1, ONE PICTURE of us from like 2 years ago and it said "happy birthday @kaitlyn we've known eachother for years" THAT WAS IT. all those years he called me his best friend, we've been on the phone for hours, facetimed, hung out, went to the movies together, carved pumpkins together, and been there for each other? I mean i know it's just a birthday post but it hurts? He put so much effort into literally EVERYONE ELSE who he barely met this year and me? I get a half-assed happy birthday and he made my expectations so much higher bragging about "oh don't worry your gonna get the spam of your life!" like if you aren't going to do it, then just tell me before , and don't lie about it. I literally stood there, waiting for more pictures or videos, because he has so many pictures of me. SO MANY SCREENSHOTS OF MY SNAPS, VIDEOS, PICTURES OF US! and you know at the time, he wasn't together with his girlfriend, and it was 2 weeks after they broke up. but i didn't know that, so i used him not wanting to make his girlfriend upset as a possibilty. But even my friends noticed the little to no effort he put.
So was he embarrassed of me because i am not cool enough? I mean his best buddies don't like me. My best buddies don't like him.
It's just like...do you guys think it's time to let the friendship go and i should stop putting all this time and energy overthinking. I see him in 6 weeks because of school so?