Bullying

what makes you happy? I like readin myself, do you have any honest joys?

When i was around 8 i was bullied by my whole year group and had to grow up very fast as i had 2 little sisters and i had to take care of them and on top of that everywhere i went i would feel that everyone is judging me which is why i don want to go out. i am 15 now but the bullying didnt stop untill i was 13 or 14 so i had to grow up very fast and i wish i stanned BTS then so maybe a little light of my life could entered then but i was struggling between home and school life and even now i feel like the world is collapsing and its even worst now since there is exam after exam. Right now my life is similar to when i was 8 years old and sincei am 15 everyone wants me to grow up but how can i grow up when i havnt even had a childhood. All these years i have been to the headteachers office and back, interventions for my mental health and none of it was working. So now i rarely ever smile cuz i feel like no one wants to see me happy. I am crying while writing this but every day i cry whilst going sleep and everyday i wake up with swollen eyes and no one asks why. Like no one cares for me. ik you guys will be like oh its ok we care for you i care anbout you but in realitly no one really cares everyone has their own life but i just really wanna get tis off my chest.

hey! I feel like you may really benefit from talking to someone professional about how you feel if you're not already - it seems like you've got a lot of raw, withheld emotions and perhaps chatting to a counsellor would help with that. There are some good websites out there where you can have an online chat with counsellors (kooth, childline) or you could ring a free helpline

tbh the only happiness i get is when bts really posats something other than tha nothing else all i ever do s work and thats what i am expecte to do

bruh my parents are indian strict indian parentd

tbh the only happiness i get is when bts really posats something other than tha nothing else all i ever do s work and thats what i am expecte to do

you need to find more things you enjoy.

yeah i get you i feel the same ive got 4 siblings to take care of plus my own mental health plus the hate from my parents and people around me. In all honesty i think the only thing keeping me going is my friend and literally youtube so i can distract myself from this place. I dont know how to advise you sorry this post was not necessary but i do feel how you feel everyday.

Im just waiting for the future i guess

inni yt and tiktok is the only escape i have
but i dont even have a phone so i just go on my ipad in secret and then there is my sisters that snatch my ipad from me.
Like noone sees the hardwoerk i put in and they just see te bad tins i do like if i have done bad in a test or like shouted at my sisters for doing some ****.

i understand my parents take my phone away aswell, i always seem to take the blame from them and my dad always mentally messes with my head. My mum only cooks for my dad and not for us so i do the cooking for my siblings so thats great 👍🏼

you don't have to tell them - kooth is anonymous and you wouldn't have to even talk out-loud. sorry if this is not an option

kooth is online and anonymous

OK

hopefully you find help there

hopefully you find help there

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