I know what you mean. If you're already aware that you can be anxious then it's totally understandable that these feelings would come up when you're considering something like this. Talking to your doctor could be an excellent idea! I bet this would really help you talk things out and put everything on the table. There's also some great resources provided by local charities you can call, and often for free if you're not able to get an appointment at the moment. A quick google search can lead you to some of those!
It sounds like this may be something that you may need to manage both now and during your studies. Try communicating with your partner about these things (maybe show them your post here to give them an insight in to your feelings?), and hopefully the more aware of this they are the more understanding they will be. It can be so hard to communicate when you're feeling overwhelmed- I've also felt similarly in the past but airing things out can really help. It's much easier said than done though!
One piece of advice I'd definitely look in to- once you've narrowed down your university choices and are sure on the ones you'd like to apply to, get in touch with their Student Wellbeing services. Given that you may be anxious throughout your studies- make the effectiveness of these services one of the factors in your decision making. You may need them, and you want to know that the support they have in place is what you need.
You are 100% good enough! Don't let your mind stop you from achieving so many great things and following good, meaningful career paths. It won't be easy, but it will be sooooo worth it if it's what you want to do
Think of how proud of yourself you'll be when you're graduating!
Hope this helps a bit? I'm sure you'll do brilliantly. Like I say, it may be the fear of the unknown that's overwhelming at the moment and there are loads of 'what ifs' - but once you start to do your research I hope that your worries start to be overtaken a little bit for excitement to do the course!
- Caitlin
Official University of Strathclyde Rep