I get mad jealous lol

How do you have time to deal with these emotions? It sounds absolutely draining! Toxic, even. Out of curiosity, are you in college/uni? This behaviour is not (i hope) normal across other relationships.

You do not seem anywhere near mature enough for a relationship. Your 'getting back at her' mentality is toxic and its concerning that you cant do anything productive without her. You sound emotionally reliant on this girl which isnt healthy in the slightest.
Have you thought about taking a break to sort out your own issues without someone else being in your life?

I realise that, and that’s why I’m trying to cure myself.
I’m am emotionally reliant, and I have mentioned that weve taken breaks, and whenever that happens I feel ****ed. Like honestly. I feel like a wasteman. But also I’m not sure what a relationship if for then, like isn’t it for two people that don’t want to be apart?

Cuz I’m stupid, and prioritise her over my own ****. I’m in year 13,what do u mean by other relationships.
Thing is I’m scared to let go. And if I I do I miss her crazy. And cannot do anything productive. I feel like **** like a wasteman and do drugs do get numb
What’s your advice?

It doesn't sound like you are prioritising your girlfriend, more like you are jealous because she has a good time with friends and you play stupid games to hurt her. It's nothing to do with this day and age and music culture; it's down to your poor behaviour, and drugs won't solve anything, they will mask the true problem and cause even more issues.

You need to leave this girl and not get involved with anyone else until you understand how a relationship works, with give and take, trust and communication.

I don’t play games with her, what r u talking about?
And people like xxx tentenation are people I can relate to.

The xxx tentenation supposedly accused of stabbings and domestic abuse?
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I don’t play games with her, what r u talking about?
And people like xxx tentenation are people I can relate to.

Cuz I’m stupid, and prioritise her over my own ****. I’m in year 13,what do u mean by other relationships.
Thing is I’m scared to let go. And if I I do I miss her crazy. And cannot do anything productive. I feel like **** like a wasteman and do drugs do get numb
What’s your advice?

And people like xxx tentenation are people I can relate to.

If he is such a major influence on you, why have you spelt his name incorrectly?

I don’t play games with her, what r u talking about?
And people like xxx tentenation are people I can relate to.

Nooo please don't bring X into this, the guy was a legend, and too, too good for this world - RIP XXXTentacion 😭😭😭😭

I realise that, and that’s why I’m trying to cure myself.
I’m am emotionally reliant, and I have mentioned that weve taken breaks, and whenever that happens I feel ****ed. Like honestly. I feel like a wasteman. But also I’m not sure what a relationship if for then, like isn’t it for two people that don’t want to be apart?

If drug possession, gun possession, robbery, stabbing, pistol-whipping, and domestic violence is too good, I'd hate to meet someone you consider too bad...