Hey all,
Currently in 1st year of dental school at a London university...Only been like 2 months since we started but I absolutely hate it! I've been so stressed and genuinely (not saying it figuratively) depressed. The workload has proven to be too much and I'm finding that I have no free time to myself.
This has gotten me really depressed as studying isn't something I enjoy doing but something I've always seen as just compulsory for the next stepI didn't do A-Level Biology but I did like biology at GCSE (it was my fav science) so I naively thought I could do dentistry at uni ... even though all dental schools in the UK (except 3) require biology for applicants to be accepted, I thought I could do it because I liked GCSE biology.. little did I know it was a totally different ball game...
but tbh its not this aspect that's been bugging me but rly the amount of work and content. I just honestly with all my heart hate where I'm at now and don't see myself being committed to this for another 5 years and plus when considering the career as a dentist will be one that's so stressful - and honestly, I don't even think I like having to work with people (patients)...
there have been days I've acc cried and despised what I'm doing with my life rn - I hate the thought that my life for the next long years will be just studying etc - I'm not a party guy I'm rly introverted and hence idc about like not having enough time to party or go out whatever - I just want time to myself and for my own hobbies (anime - I love it so much!)
im seriously thinking of dropping out and want to apply b4 UCAS deadline jan 15 - I've started looking at courses but I genuinely cannot find anything, as I'm just not passionate about anythingI do think COVID lockdown etc has made me more lazy etc and therefore study habits will be difficult to develop again but I do think its not this that's contributing to my pain atm - its acc the fact that I don't enjoy what I'm doing atm - b4 applying I thought I could tolerate it but now I hate myself for even thinking that.. I did get pressured by my parents to go into med cuz of my grades etc but I didn't want to - so I 'compromised' and decided to go into dent which I thought would be more cooler..
btw before applying to dent, I did little research - so honestly my fault but I did do shadowing etc to get a feel of what it would be like
so yh, UCAS deadline fast approaching and I still don't know what I'm going to do... id like to apply b4 jan 15 so I can start skl sept 2021..but atm I don't even know what I want to do. I don't want to rush my decision and pick a course just for the sake of it and come to hate it again - so i was thinking of applying next year and start skl sept 2022, but it worries me that ill become more lazy and will come to fall out more studying.. also a 2year gap in my CV seems scary and idk how I would justify it
sorry for the rambling guys, I've got a lot on my mind rn and would genuinely like some help and advice please...
thank you