I’m in my first year of a BSc Adult Nursing, I’ve just started my first placement and it’s literally hell.
I had no experience in care before so I hoped that I’d be on a nice ward with friendly people who were willing to help me out and show me the ropes. Sadly I was mistaken. I came into the ward greeted by a very annoyed looking nurse, was told to wait in the handover room which I did. Sat through the handover and not one person had acknowledged my existence. Everybody walked off and I had to follow and ask someone if I was in the right place. It turned out I was, however the ward was now a covid ward (I wasn’t told prior to starting) and also my mentor was on holiday so I’d have to just ‘float’. The sister then left me in the middle of the corridor wondering what the hell to do next. I found a HCA who showed me how to wash a patient, then he left me reading some ‘notes’ and disappeared. I then found another HCA who palmed me off to somebody else who also didn’t want me there.
I spent the whole day being snapped at, I had no training whatsoever, I was expected to know how to do personal care for the patients which I had no idea what I was doing. I was asked to feed a patient, to which I stated I’ve never done this before, only for the snappy HCA to say ‘just feed them?’.
I know this may have just been a bad ward and a bad day, however it also made me feel that the profession wasn’t right for me. I didn’t like how the nurses spoke to the patients and disregarded them as though they were worthless, I feel as though if I were to pursue this career I would need to be the same way in order to fit in with the nurses. I witnessed some terrible practise including dragging patients up the bed, using the same gloves to change a bed pan and then feed a patient (no wonder MRSA and covid are so easily spread in hospital), mocking patients and discussing how annoying they were. I honestly cannot see myself working in that profession, however I feel very stuck at the moment as I quit a good job to pursue the dream of nursing, only to feel very disillusioned and disheartened. I’m only in my first year, should I quit now and cut my losses or carry it on for 3 years only to hate it at the end?