Hi,
I’m currently a year 11 gcse student and literally dreading going to sixth form next year purely because of how much I compare myself to others, ending up in a constant unbearable cycle of being unable to begin work, finish work, and feel that it’s good. I feel inadequate against my classmates and friends, that I am the dumbest one amongst my peers. I want so badly to do well in sixth form and have dreams of what I want to do in life, however, I feel as if I go to sixth form with this burden weighing me down I will be unable to succeed. I’m scared that my teachers will view my work as terrible and see me as the dullest in the class. Sometimes, it’s like I physically cannot write or complete anything because I’m terrified that the outcome will confirm my worries of my work being terrible. I don’t deem myself as smart, nor stupid in all honesty, i just want to overcome this and have confidence in myself but I don’t know where to begin. My insecurity manifests itself into a horrible jealousy where I don’t want my closest friends to succeed, and their achievements make me feel bitter. I hate feeling like that because normally I always uplift my friends and wish them the best. Please offer advice or share if you feel like this too. I feel like I’m the only one