It's a complicated one. Me and this boy met through mutuals and was pretty awkward the first time we met. We talked more via text and clicked quite well, we met a couple times. (Unfortunately, both times I happened to be drunk with couple friends - side note - this WAS around a month ago) We ended up kissing on NYE. We however have stopped talking tbh. He has asked me to meet him but it's always been at the most random times such as 2am, 11pm, some of the times he was drunk.
We spoke recently and he asked me to see him and I said no because of lockdown, he insisted I was probably going to meet other boys. (This was false) He always goes on about me talking to a lot of boys/ meeting a lot of guys. I told him it's nothing to worry about and that I don't infact 'talk to multiple boys' and I have boy- mates, not anything more. I told him that I know he gets a lot of attention from girls but I don't say anything, he just said ''Yeah I do but I don't entertain it, I don't satisfy anything'', I just said well yeah.. neither do I. I then went on to ask him why he cares if he never messages me, he said he would if I didn't ''talk to so many boys''. I just want him to get this stupid idea out of his head.
I really do like him, I'm not sure if he feels the same way because he doesn't show it like he did before we kissed. I also don't know much about him because he's a very closed book. It's hard to get to know him and as his friends told me, he won't open up unless he knows he can 100% trust you. I completely understand, I just wish he gave me more direct signals and I really hope he isn't just using me, I get this idea from the weird times he has asked to meet me.. idk lol