I am not perfect and some people tell me to just “put the food down” but it isn’t that simple. When I lived with my abusive family for 15 years, I developed many different health issues including GAD. When I got badly beaten, I would eat. Even though I was constantly belittled for my body and eating habits. Was told I was worthless and so much more. OBVIOUSLY I am going to have issues. Some people turn to alcohol, drugs, sex. Some people stop eating. I ate and I ate. For so many years so it is incredibly difficult for me to stop binging. But I have gone through so much trauma in my life and here I am, strong. I have tried many times to get over my eating habits but it was difficult. And is difficult. I have diabetes type 1 also, diagnosed at age 1 and I see everyone else whose diabetic who have been diagnosed a lot later than I am, doing so well with their diabetes. My family would shame me when they saw a newly diagnosed diabetic managing their blood sugars while I was diagnosed as a baby and still struggle. I didn’t have any support at all. I was being beaten everyday and had hurtful comments thrown at me all my life, school and family. And healthcare workers. I feel ashamed for having terrible blood sugars. My doctor told me if I don’t fix my blood sugars, I will die or lose my limbs or go blind. And I feel even more ashamed that it wasn’t enough for me to fix my life up.