I don’t understand

I don’t want to offend anyone but, I know BLM and I know that you can’t oppress the oppressor but, it’s hard. Because of my anxiety I get worked up a lot and being white I have basically been born to be labelled “trash” or “waste of life” and I know maybe I’m just being stupid but it hurts, more that it should. I just want to live life without anyone fighting or anyone being hurt but, then again I’m not allowed to think that because I’m white. Privileged waste of life person who should feel upset or depressed because I’m white and I have it easy. But, I don’t. I have lived with anxiety and I have had moments where I’ve felt worthless and wanted to give up, I’ve been through some moments which have been engraved in my mind, I’ve also been pushed and forced to do things that I don’t want to do. I just want to feel like me being white maybe isn’t a bad thing. Cause all I see is that we are stupid and evil. And I have lived up with that thought in mind.

Have you got really radical left wing parents or something? It genuinely sounds like you've been psychologically abused.

I don’t want to offend anyone but, I know BLM and I know that you can’t oppress the oppressor but, it’s hard. Because of my anxiety I get worked up a lot and being white I have basically been born to be labelled “trash” or “waste of life” and I know maybe I’m just being stupid but it hurts, more that it should. I just want to live life without anyone fighting or anyone being hurt but, then again I’m not allowed to think that because I’m white. Privileged waste of life person who should feel upset or depressed because I’m white and I have it easy. But, I don’t. I have lived with anxiety and I have had moments where I’ve felt worthless and wanted to give up, I’ve been through some moments which have been engraved in my mind, I’ve also been pushed and forced to do things that I don’t want to do. I just want to feel like me being white maybe isn’t a bad thing. Cause all I see is that we are stupid and evil. And I have lived up with that thought in mind.

I think they said that they were in the middle, rather than right or left. But, I have divorced parents and then a stepdad, he says all sort of jokes and stuff which are a bit bad.
Because of my anxiety I tend to go to the internet for support or for a distraction from daily disturbing thoughts.
To be honest, I’ve been the type to not really talk to others about my feelings which doesn’t really help as I keep them bottled up, and things that people say/ do or things that I see on the internet can easily trigger my anxiety and thoughts.
(Edit: I’ve had my fair share of people making me feel like I am always doing wrong, like with my ex when I broke up with him due to peer-pressure; he kept going at it and saying “why!” And “am I not good enough!” Also “Please I’m sorry I won’t do it again” I had told him why before but he kept at it. It made me beat myself up because I didn’t want to hurt him but, I couldn’t stay with him cause I would be lying to him and myself about my feelings. Not only that but, my old neighbours daughter around the same age as me kept asking me to sleep round- and when I’d say no she went silent and stopped talking to me until I said yes. Is that like physiological abuse?

Are you a boy or a girl?
Is your stepdad non white?

I’m a girl and my step-dad is white

this is called white fragility. an attack on "whiteness" (as in the academic concept) is not a personal attack on you.

this is called white fragility.

an attack on "whiteness" (as in the academic concept) is not a personal attack on you. you can acknowledge that you benefit from certain privileges as a white person without seeing it as a personal moral failing.

Sure it isn't 🙄

If it was any other race it would be condemned as Hate Speech- That's what real fragility looks like: needing the law to stop people criticizing you.

No such thing. A made up term by a 3rd rate academic that certain quarters have latched on to to validate their perversely false narrative.

True but given those who use the term are explicitly using it as an attack on people simply for being white it would seem this attempt to excuse an expressly racist term (imagine if someone said black fragility - theyd immediately be branded worse than hitler) which, aside from being risible in how little it relies on facts seems overly purile. Just because someone happens to be white does not give them any innate benefits in life - look at all those white homeless addicts. They dont seem to be particularly 'priviliged' due to a melanin level.

being white I have basically been born to be labelled “trash” or “waste of life”

this is called white fragility. an attack on "whiteness" (as in the academic concept) is not a personal attack on you. you can acknowledge that you benefit from certain privileges as a white person without seeing it as a personal moral failing. It also kinda seems like a misdirected mental health issue, if you want, try to talk to someone about getting therapy.

Indeed. I fully appreciate the advantages I have had from being white, but that doesn't mean that I think there is anything wrong or shameful in being white. It's only a problem when people try to pretend that being white is somehow a disadvantage these days. Bloody snowflakes.

this is called white fragility. an attack on "whiteness" (as in the academic concept) is not a personal attack on you. you can acknowledge that you benefit from certain privileges as a white person without seeing it as a personal moral failing. It also kinda seems like a misdirected mental health issue, if you want, try to talk to someone about getting therapy.

do you know what whiteness means?

this is called white fragility.

No, it's called deliberately framing an argument in terms designed to upset people, and then blaming them for it. It's perfectly possible to discuss race without using these recently invented terms.