Been friends for 8+ years. I found out I was Lgbt back in year 8, after I started feeling something else for her. My feelings toward her grew more and more over the years and it didn’t help that she always had boyfriends- it was really deflating.
There was the odd sign of her being lgbt in some way as there was rumours at school, she said to me she was questioning, she has acted toward me in a different/ more flirty way than our other friends I guess. And when prom came around she started dancing with this guy and omg I I feel so bad cause I obviously want her to be happy but I felt so jealous at the same time, like I really really wanted to be that guy. That’s when I realised I definitely had a crush on her.
Since then nothing much has been said, she broke up with him and whenever I talk about lgbt in the chat she always changes the subject but I do get the odd sign when we hang out like idk touching my hand/hair. I’m just getting a lot of mixed messages and I’ve had a crush on her for so long, she is my best friend and I really want to say something but I’m not sure how it will end or if she will be off put and ruin our friendship.
But I literally can’t take this any more, I’ve been holding it in for so so long And before someone suggests to cut contacts.. I can’t, she means to much to me I literally can’t fathom the thought of that. And to forget about the crush is on another level, I see her too much. I’ve tried and it keeps coming back. I need advise so bad 😂