hurt my bf and he hasn't come home yet

Your both in the wrong.

it was all me this time, trust me
someone should cut my ****ing tongue out, that would solve the issue

damn i think its best to let him calm down.... it wasnt just your fault btw its his too

sounds like a rather toxic relationship, was he the same one that slapped you? Then you made a thread about it a while ago? You’re Still with him?

Now he’s grabbing you by the neck? Where’s the line in this relationship?

yeah, we're still together
lol, my neck isn't an issue here. idk if i can even face him ever again

nah. not this time. no one should have to put up with the vile **** i said to him.

yeah, we're still together
lol, my neck isn't the issue here. idk if i can even face him ever again

we got into an argument because i didn't want one of his friends over (basically he's an idiot, and he always ****ing harasses me when he's drunk). anyway, the argument turned nasty. i just remember saying so many disgusting, cruel things to him. stuff i knew would make him feel worthless and humiliated. stuff that would hurt his feelings. it was bad, trust me. ****ing vile. i even mocked his dead family member. idk how my brain even comes up with gross stuff like that. now that i've calmed down, i find my comments shocking.

he hardly said anything during my rant but at one point he snapped and grabbed me by the neck which startled me due to some past experiences. so i think i hit him. idk but he left and he hasn't come back yet and i'm so worried about
i don't even know how to apologise for my words, i'm so ashamed of myself

nah. not this time. no one should have to put up with the vile **** i said to him.

yeah, we're still together
lol, my neck isn't the issue here. idk if i can even face him ever again

you guys should break up, bc he is gets aggressive when he drinks and hurts you, and you hurt him back bc you feel mad and scared and its unhealthy, but in this case your both in the wrong

I know you've been told this a million times but you really need time apart

Not sure what to say other than you're both toxic in this relationship and it's probably better if he doesn't come back. Y'all need to work on yourselves before you get other people involved in your issues.

Give it the night, see whats up tomorrow

I think I honestly lost the ability to be even mildly surprised or empathetic by these a dozen or so threads ago, I have no idea why people would live this way day in day out.

kinda difficult because of the stupid pandemic. are hotels even open yet?

we got into an argument because i didn't want one of his friends over (basically he's an idiot, and he always ****ing harasses me when he's drunk). anyway, the argument turned nasty. i just remember saying so many disgusting, cruel things to him. stuff i knew would make him feel worthless and humiliated. stuff that would hurt his feelings. it was bad, trust me. ****ing vile. i even mocked his dead family member. idk how my brain even comes up with gross stuff like that. now that i've calmed down, i find my comments shocking.

he hardly said anything during my rant but at one point he snapped and grabbed me by the neck which startled me due to some past experiences. so i think i hit him. idk but he left and he hasn't come back yet and i'm so worried about
i don't even know how to apologise for my words, i'm so ashamed of myself

He should not be inviting anyone over at the moment ...

You’re both harmful to each other. Someone’s going to end up dead at the rate you both are going.


This relationship from an outsiders perspective is quite toxic, either leave or give it space. You might not think you need it, but it’ll do both you some good in the long run.

Trust the process.

ngl i think you both need some time apart it seems pretty toxic even looking at your other threads.... Plus ive seen in another thread youve said you like seeing men 'angry'? was this part of it?

What you said to him may have just been 'in the moment' people get angry and say stuff they regret later.

I hope it works out but just let him cool down....

IDK, but it gives you time to make an exit plan since you're so financially dependent on him

i wouldn't even know where to begin tbh