I’m gonna try keep this short but this situation has effected me way worse than I expected it to. I’ll get straight to the point
We’d just finished having sex , and my girlfriend must’ve been talking about mutual friends that we share between eachother. It wasn’t long before she RANDOMLY, without me even asking about this one person, unprovoked, mentioned how there’s this one guy that showed her and her friend his penis during some party in a local park in the summer time. She explained how he took them round the corner to show them his penis (on his phone) which seems so suspect to me. I personally believe she lied to my face and he actually wacked it out in front of them (because why on earth would he need to go round some corner to show them a picture/video of his penis? because I sure as hell know I wouldn’t if I was him unless I had the intention of wacking it out) but she denies it fully.
Anyways fast forward now, she’s now going into detail about how big is penis was and didn’t stop putting emphasis. “It was really really big you know, like really big” just kept on saying whilst getting dressed after us having sex. I’m just sat on the bed nodding my head like some idiot just casually hearing my girlfriend comfortably telling me about how big another mans size like I’m her gay best friend or something. And these times, remember I didn’t even mention or ask so please don’t comment if your gonna say stuff like “well you asked she answered”
So now I’ve just sat there looking at her and she’s asking me why I’m not saying anything. Lol. I sat there for about 5 minutes processing everything and once I did, I felt insecure for the first time for some reason and I couldn’t help it, which caused me to ask her quickly (I regret it) “bigger than mine?” I had to know and she replied “hmm idk maybe the same size” I knew just from that she lied to me to protect my ego but little did she know she’d somehow managed to damage it with the amount of emphasis she put on the size of his penis unprovoked.
I got dressed and left her house. I had nothing else to say to her after that convo I was in rage. We had a big big argument later in the day about it, which she did end up apologising. I wanted to leave her after that comment because why would it even cross her mind for her to tell me such things. I know for certain I’ve never mentioned other girls body parts in front of her, furthermore it’s never ever crossed my mind, remember, I never asked about this guy that she was bragging about. What I’m tryna say now is I can’t get it out my head even weeks later, I’ve tried to forget about it but it keeps coming back. I’ve never been insecure about my penis size my penis is big and she’s even said it’s the biggest she’s had etc.
But it hurt me badly, more the fact that she comfortably told her bf how big a mutual friends penis size was/is I have no idea how she put so much emphasis from a picture/video and still managed to compare it to mine, the maths don’t add up he must’ve gotten it out. I’m not really posting for sympathy I just wanted to see you guys opinion, will it leave my head eventually? Am I being overly insecure? Please don’t tell me “leave her if you can’t get over it” because it’s not as easy as that guys, please. My ego has been struck and it’s made me refrain less from talking about other girls infront of her. (I know it’s bad and petty, come at me for it.. it is what it is) it’s been a few weeks now since she all of that went down, I feel **** everytime I think about it. I can’t help it, I’m human.