He wants me back but...

So my bf broke up with me a week ago he wanted to be mates and i barely been sleeping and feeling empty but lately hes been changing his mind alot since mid February and this is hes 4th time changing his mind

He changed his mind 2 days ago he wanted to make sure this doesnt happen again and the breakup made him realise how much i really meant to him and he wanted this to just be a break instead and he wants to see me tomorrow (been nearly 2weeks since i saw him) and he tends to start missing me after a week of not seeing me and he said hes barely been sleeping saying hes worried about me and keeps thinking about me

But the issue now is i think my feelings have changed towards him when he first messaged to dump me i was upset but i couldnt cry i was just empty no emotion for a week i thought he would change his mind again so i wasnt too upset
few days past i started to feel it i found myself cryin while listening to sad songs realising he would normally change his mind by now but he didn't

So when he did change his mind i felt nothing but i still missed his hugs but i felt like i wasnt ready to see him i avoided seeing him yesterday coz i wasnt in good shape i barely slept havent changed my clothes for 2 days but i had an hour bath yesterday and did my hair so I felt better for that

I feel me seeing him it will start to hit me i mean even if i dont meet up i still have to face him at college as we on the same group
But i feel he only wants me when hes lonely
And i know ya'll are gonna hit me with the "move on" phrase but dont bother with that aha

Know your worth! Yes, breakups hurt so badly but surely you deserve better than being broken up with four times?
You need to enjoy yourself - after a year of lockdown in mind - with things starting to open up you should go out with some friends and look after number one.
Don’t chase somebody who’d never chase you, as you’re the only one who will get hurt.

4th time? It sounds tiring. Id let this be the final one if I were in your position, he shouldnt be in a relationship if he's this terrified of commitment. If you decide to get back together you need to talk it through because clearly something is wrong.

Mabye he is a duck