Being black (Somali), gay and Muslim

I have recently been feeling emotional due to several reasons but they all lead back to my sexuality. I have recently seen the announcement of elite season 4 and saw some other clips of Omar and Andre and I related so much with Omar and I started to think about my future and if I will ever be happy or how I will tell my family even though they are not supportive and they have emotionally and physically abused me but also neglected me and my feelings. But being who I am I still want my family to love me ( which will never happen because they love control so much but that’s another story for another time). I have come out to my close friends as gay and they have been supportive a lot but unfortunately not to my family who are super homophobic. Luckily for me I am moving out on September to attend university of Manchester or Exeter to study law and plan to cut ties with my family when I am stable and get a corporate job which I will be when I am 22-23 year's old. What I wanted to ask you guys is so do you believe you can be Muslim and gay? And should I never come out in the future and stay as being the miserable person I am now?
Also I am currently 17 and in the London

Sorry I'm confused... u still want your family to love you, but you plan to cut ties with them when ur 22-23??

I think that things will be better for you in the future than you are imagining at the moment.

I see that Manchester and Exeter both have flourishing LGBT+ Societies:

https://www.facebook.com/UoMLGBTQSociety/

https://www.exeterguild.org/societies/pridesoc/

I think that you shouldn't worry too much just yet. The fact that you got a way out (at two fantastic unis by the way- well done!) is huge. You can be yourself when you're at uni, so the immediate danger of family won't be present. Come out when you're ready, but do note that student finance (anything above the base loan, I mean) is dependent on parental income (and them agreeing to sign your papers) so it may be better to come out after? Unless, of course, you can finance yourself at uni with just the base student loan and working/savings.

I don't understand why you'd want to keep practising a religion that is inherently homophobic and opressive. There's absolutely nothing wrong with being gay, there's a lot wrong with the way Islam forbids and demonizes being gay.

Thank you for the kind words but I have already done student finance and got a letter confirming how much I will get yearly which is the max by the way and hopefully getting an extra £2k from Manchester if I get the grades

Thank you very much for the links. You don't know how much this means to me

I have recently been feeling emotional due to several reasons but they all lead back to my sexuality. I have recently seen the announcement of elite season 4 and saw some other clips of Omar and Andre and I related so much with Omar and I started to think about my future and if I will ever be happy or how I will tell my family even though they are not supportive and they have emotionally and physically abused me but also neglected me and my feelings. But being who I am I still want my family to love me ( which will never happen because they love control so much but that’s another story for another time). I have come out to my close friends as gay and they have been supportive a lot but unfortunately not to my family who are super homophobic. Luckily for me I am moving out on September to attend university of Manchester or Exeter to study law and plan to cut ties with my family when I am stable and get a corporate job which I will be when I am 22-23 year's old. What I wanted to ask you guys is so do you believe you can be Muslim and gay? And should I never come out in the future and stay as being the miserable person I am now?
Also I am currently 17 and in the London

of course there are gay Muslims, whether its feelings from the heart of lust and whatnot is debated a lot but it doesn't matter, Islam advises to keep those feelings and thoughts to yourself and not act upon them, thoughts and feelings aren't sins Allah doesn't sin you for them unless you act upon them, if you don't act upon them you are rewarded by Allah for avoiding acting on them. In islam relationship outside marriage is prohibited so a gay relationship or a straight relationship are both haram outside marriage. Marriage in islam is only allowed through woman and man, some Muslims believe they must get married to procreate, and they believe love is found through the obstacles and hardships married couples face and overcome together.

i hope you can mend your family relationship and become a happier person, may Allah give you strength and happiness

of course there are gay Muslims, whether its feelings from the heart of lust and whatnot is debated a lot but it doesn't matter, Islam advises to keep those feelings and thoughts to yourself and not act upon them, thoughts and feelings aren't sins Allah doesn't sin you for them unless you act upon them, if you don't act upon them you are rewarded by Allah for avoiding acting on them. In islam relationship outside marriage is prohibited so a gay relationship or a straight relationship are both haram outside marriage. Marriage in islam is only allowed through woman and man, some Muslims believe they must get married to procreate, and they believe love is found through the obstacles and hardships married couples face and overcome together.

i hope you can mend your family relationship and become a happier person, may Allah give you strength and happiness

I have recently been feeling emotional due to several reasons but they all lead back to my sexuality. I have recently seen the announcement of elite season 4 and saw some other clips of Omar and Andre and I related so much with Omar and I started to think about my future and if I will ever be happy or how I will tell my family even though they are not supportive and they have emotionally and physically abused me but also neglected me and my feelings. But being who I am I still want my family to love me ( which will never happen because they love control so much but that’s another story for another time). I have come out to my close friends as gay and they have been supportive a lot but unfortunately not to my family who are super homophobic. Luckily for me I am moving out on September to attend university of Manchester or Exeter to study law and plan to cut ties with my family when I am stable and get a corporate job which I will be when I am 22-23 year's old. What I wanted to ask you guys is so do you believe you can be Muslim and gay? And should I never come out in the future and stay as being the miserable person I am now?
Also I am currently 17 and in the London