No one believes me uni

All through my GCSEs and A-levels i would always come out of an exam thinking i failed and when people would ask me how i think i done i would say bad. However, I'd then come out with A grades. I know people probably think im the type of person who would say i done bad looking for attention but i would genuinely think i failed and i would be embarrassed when i done well because people would say "i thought u failed". Now it's like a joke when my parents ask me how i done in a test and i say bad they're like that's great as in bad means good you know. Idk how i never really studied in school i just seemed to remember stuff from class. Anyway now i'm in uni and i'm really struggling i feel like lockdown affected my memory because i can't remember anything. I tried to talk to my parents and tell them because i had an exam and i knew nothing the only reason i may have passed was because it was open book so i could use lecture notes for recall stuff. They don't believe me when i say im struggling now and that im worried i wont get into next year because i dont think ill pass these exams. It's so frustrating because i really am struggling now and i cant remember the content idk what was different with school but i just remembered it all and didn't have to study. Now i'm trying to read over notes and i cant even remember doing the lecture and i cant recall what i just read. idk what to do. Part of me wants to fail so that they'll listen to me.

You shouldn't care what people think. If your parents aren't listening to you, sit down and make sure that they know that you are struggling. Maybe talk to your lecturers and see if they can help. Don't fail on purpose, it may be bad for your final grade. If they still don't listen, just carry on revising and try your best. .