This guy who I've been friends with for more than 4 years, is also low key my fwb (we havent had sx, just got physical) and he is also aware that it started out when he was my rebound and I just got out of one of my longer relationships. We've been good friends even after, I dated another guy after and this dude has still been a good friend, we kept in touch after he switched schools.
Even if we havent talked in a long while cause we're busy with school and life, we still manage to pick up conversations right where we left off everytime we do talk again. He isnt a romantic person, doesnt like cheesy stuff, and I love a romantic guy, which is why we started off in the first place, because even though we have crazy attraction between us, we want different things in a relationship. I need a protective, clingy of sorts kinda guy who'd put effort into us, but he likes more laid back kinda stuff. I'd want the guy to reply to me often and he takes his time with his replies.
But after my latest breakup, we started flirting again. But this time he's been more romantic, as in not just sx talk, but he thinks about cuddles with me, and getting me gifts for my birthday, which isnt like him. He's been calling me baby and sweetheart, and about how he knows me as his lady, and how we got a special kinda bond. He's been talking about how I wouldnt have ended up in my last relationship (which was toxic) if he didnt switch schools, and about how we would have dated because he feels very close to me.
A few weeks back when I got real depressed about my ex, I was thinking about ending it all, and wasnt in a good place, I told him about and he was super supportive, and told me he really does care about me and wouldnt know what he'd do if he lost me. He then later told me he loved me at 3 in the morning, and then it was a little awkward so he said he loved me more than a friend but not that way, like how you love your family and we changed topic and didnt speak of that again.
He knows he was my rebound, but then says he doesnt want to label it that way or as fwb, because I mean more to him. To me I've never been a part of his close friends circle because we were part of different groups at school. We were both pretty popular and attractive people, but he hung out with other popular kids who hated me, and I hung out with other people who his popular friends didnt support. So, when him and I did hang out, it was in secret, and we'd have to sneak around to be together.
Right before he left school, one of the times we snuck away from everyone, we sat on the floor with my head on his chest, and he put his arm around me, we sat there in silence, and he told me that he wished he could freeze that moment, away from the drama and everything, just him and me, together. I said I wished the same, and I know I've wanted him and I to be more than friends sometimes, but then I try to tell myself that it wouldnt work out because we want different things.
I'm just worried he's actually falling for me, because of the way he's been acting lately, and if we do take things forward, I'd loose him as a friend. I might be overthinking his feelings because of my latest breakup which was about 2 months back, but I want someone to give me fresh perspective.