why do i hate myself so much?

Hello, I struggle with hating myself as well. I hate myself and I often compare myself to other girls thinking about how they are so much prettier or more succesful then I am . People say and often tell me I am pretty, But I dought myself and hate everything about myself often wondering if I am even good enough for a guy. Keep this love, As it seems she loves you and appreciates you strongly by supporting you. Remember that she loves you and that you are special to her no matter what.

Okay thanks, ill try and keep that thought in my mind

So im a male, 19.

Ive been feeling low quite often for a couple of years now, i really hate my body and i dont like my personality.

People tell me things about myself that are positive but i can never take them in, i will always doubt myself in anyway imaginable.

I recently got a girlfriend who is amazing amd very supportive of me, and i truly do take in what she says to me but my brain just cant seem to not hate me.

I feel like im just a huge ******* to the people around me, i dont think im really a very nice person and stuff.

And now i just cant get my head around why my girlfriend actually likes me, i can only see myself as fat and ugly (personality and body)
I feel like im really pushing above my weight, shes really pretty and sweet but i just dont think i am anything like that. I definitely dont want to break up with her, i love her to peices and would glady die for her but i cant help but think she deserves way better than me.
I think im terrified by the thought of her leaving me.

Shes told me she likes me and stuff, am i just being stupid? I dont know.

I just dont know what to do with myself.

Sorry for the inconvenience, i think this is jjst a rant, i dont know.

So im a male, 19.

Ive been feeling low quite often for a couple of years now, i really hate my body and i dont like my personality.

Hey sorry to hear that, but seems like you are struggling with anxiety and body dysmorphia, see a doctor or even a counsellor, you would be surprised how many teens/ young adults or even people in general go through this

Also, as for doctor/counsellor as you over the age of 18 noone in your family has to know it can be completely confidential

hey, sounds like you struggle a lot with insecurities. Do you know why you feel so worried about how your body may look, or why certain things about your personality bother you? I.e. Maybe in the past people commented about those things, or rather you compare yourself to other people you see?

When you say your girlfriend says reassuring stuff to you but your brain can't seem to take it in, that part sounds like imposter syndrome. It will be hard from how you feel insecure to just stop feeling those things even when someone compliments you, due to how embedded those certain insecurities will be.
To combat that, you will have to try and reverse your insecurities yourself First of all, by trying to understand what exactly you are insecure about your body- why do you feel 'too pushing above your weight', what makes you worry about your personality?
Understanding will open up a path to try and figure out how you can change this, whether in a practical way or in a mental way.
Do you think exercising could help you feel better about your weight? If you think about your personality and what you do not like, could you think of ways to reroute that and change certain things through thinking before you do something you usually would?

Have you spoken to your girlfriend about how you feel? This will allow for her to help grow with you as she will understand if you are unable to take compliments, rather than her assuming she is lying, etc. Definitely let her know how you feel because otherwise, it could cause a misunderstanding on her part. And reflect on what you do not like and how you could try and change that yourself. The most important part is realising how you feel, which you have done and already is a big step towards changing. Hope this helps

Thanks for the reply, and yeah im trying to figure myself out more and more, ever since getting with her i would say i have improved a bit mentally because we are very open to each other about our problems and insecurities. Ill keep trying to look deeper into fixing myself, it might take a while but im hopeful.