I'm a freshman at college and I as a shy guy I find it difficult to speak to people. I never had any friends, I was always lonely and now that I have a great opportunity to meet new people, I am just useless. I cannot utter a word after like 2 minutes of conversations if not even earlier. I just don't know what to say and I've lost like 9 people in here already because of it. I literally have no idea of what to talk about, I can't even crack jokes cause no jokes comes to my mind. I am literally so ashamed, I'm usually making excuses to leave, because I'm afraid I'll eff it up. I'm literally crying while writing this. Don't know how to cope with loneliness anymore. And I joined 2 clubs, these people became friends quickly and I was left out. I sometimes feel so jealous and angry that some people have something I never had - friends.