My girlfriend occasionally dabbles in cocaine use with her group of friends, usually when it is one of their birthdays or every couple of months. She claims that she always does it in a safe environment and never intends on doing it often, but it makes me extremely uncomfortable when she does. I worry about the risk factors associated with it becoming a regular thing, the damage it could cause her, and how addiction to it can be something that you sometimes cannot control. I personally have not done it because of these reasons.
I do not consider myself conservative, and I try and keep an open mind about it and realise that we are different people and our immediate friend circles do different things. I also do not want to judge or control her because of it. She also understands my point of view on it and never wants me to be uncomfortable or view her in a different light because of it. It is just difficult for me as we see eye to eye on so many things, but when it comes to this, she sees it as a fairly normal thing to do in moderation but I just hate it when she does it and cannot be at peace of mind when she does. I have told her this in an open conversation and the main thing for her is the principle of being able to be free to make her own decisions and look after herself, which I agree with, however when it comes to this I feel like it crosses a bit of a boundary for me.
It truly comes from a place of care for her and her physical and mental wellbeing, as well as wanting our future together to be happy and long lasting, so when she does cocaine (even if it is rare for her) I cannot help but feel like she is risking both her own and our futures. I really do not want this to get in the way of what we have or our future together. Would really appreciate some insight and advice on this, and how to speak to her about it without coming across as judgmental or controlling in any way. I do not want it to be a deal breaker between us if at all possible as we really love each other are happy in between the times that she does it.