yes mate i can definitely relate, and i think we all can. think about people who you look up to and think about what makes them great. the hardest part is just getting started, once you get going you'll feel so energetic and you'll have the drive forever. all it takes is one big leap. i was in a state of constant procastination through the whole of secondary school, and so i felt short of my offer to study medicine as i messed up on results day. i was depressed for about 3 days and then i decided I've got nothing to lose, but at the same time I've got so much to lose, so i decided to put my 100% effort into studying for my UCAT exam (a very daunting medicine entrance exam which u have to do each time u apply to medicine) and i ended up scoring in the top 2% in the country. compared to when i did it last year, i was in the bottom 40%. it took one big leap, where i said enough is enough (cringey as it sounds), and i started waking up at 4:30 am, working out for 2 hours, and studying until 9pm. i feel so much energetic now that I've had this big win. rinse and repeat, now I'm so much closer to becoming a medical student. its all to do with the mindset. its not really about being motivated, its about being disciplined. what are your goals? what do you want to achieve 10, 15 years down the line? a 10 million pound mansion, 12 car garage and a banging wife? yeah i bet you want all of that, so take that big leap of faith and don't look back, its all it takes. just get up, work out, shower, and make this video games, make the next GTA 5 or MW2. there's no magic sauce or magic trick that'll take you out of your depression, its all up to you. no one should care about you more than you care about yourself. its important to be selfish sometimes!!!!!!!