Birthday

Yeah no we don't talk no more and she blocked me but I have a few accounts. I had to say some stuff to her and I did. Eventually she stopped blocking me. See I feel most confident about being over it when I don't think about her or keep myself busy with work. U should do the same. Is he studying at a madaaris? Alim class? Yh k I get it. Just work hard and it's not embarrassing to say but that's y Allah made it haraam to even converse unnecessarily and flirt w the opp. gender. Mine was b4 but niw I'm paying the price. Just do tawbah and pray lots. More dua and thikr. Busy yourself w deen

I did the same, I was so upset and angry. He emailed me multiple times and I ignored him, but then I decided to say some last words to give myself some closure.
I can’t concentrate like I once did, I’ve lost my motivation despite desperately wanting to do more with my life.
He’s a student of shariah.
I’m trying to stay close to prayer instead but that’s what makes me remember him most.
It’s silly little things remind me of him, like birds singing and this little path I walk down everyday, where I used to be when he’d call me and told me he loved me; that was when the realisation hit me hard.
Thank you, for bumping this thread after 2 months and for your understanding words.

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I get it u rlly liked him but I gotta give u some tough love as I'm ur older brother (right? Ur 19 or something I swear). So u shouldn't stop praying salah at all, try ur best bc 5 is a must. It's compulsory. If it reminds u of him that's shaitan. As per the instruction of rasoolullah SAW dry spit 3 times to your left and say اعوذ بالله من الشيطان الرجيم (Tawwuz) and carry on praying. The next part isn't silly about the path thing but from what it seems Allah removed him from your life bc you weren't focused on deen and loved him more than Allah. Allah's probably testing u and teaching u to love him more than anything by removing the thing in ur life that u love most. Tough love for me too bc that could be my case too. Nw about the tread thing. In all honesty I thought it was the girl I liked when I saw the thread so I was curious

Also, is he studying at madrasah or? Is he alim already? I'm confused bc I studied at madrasah a bit (not alim) but from the sounds of things he is studying at madrasah. It's not uni right?

Yes I’m 19, I said 20 so I don’t sound immature…
I haven’t stopped, I just think of him, maybe cry a little for disappointing my parents and Allah.
What you’ve said makes complete sense, maybe I did love him more, it’s awful to say but I was completely drawn to him. I wanted to do everything he said, he spoke of marriage, how perhaps he’d prefer if I covered my face and even though I’d never really favoured that, I would have for him. I don’t love him anymore though, or am trying not to.
I think I posted the thread on October 1st tbh, just so he didn’t clock on. When I saw your post I thought maybe he was pulling my leg, even though that’s unlike him.
I’m guessing she didn’t say Happy birthday either?

He’s at a university, he will finish he’s third year and then do his masters and phd he said.
What made you change? If you don’t mind me asking so

No but it was on me bc I said I had to leave coz it's haram ( I've done that b4 and came back bc I'm weak). Yh covering for him is a form of shirk uno. Not a major 1 but you're doing a righteous deed to please other than Allah. During salah u need to focus only on Allah too

Change what? Leave madrasah? Expensive and my parents wanted me to have secular education I.e. A levels and university. My madrasah was the worst to do A levels. V few ppl did. Also studying at uni Islam isn't that good if you're not already alim bc madrasah is the traditional way and I'm sure universities don't rlly specialise or competently teach it, no offence

I understand that, I guess it’s hard to leave someone who you shared your feelings with.
I know, honestly that’s what is making want to forget him, the fact that he isn’t of anywhere near comparison to Allah, so why dwell on him? you know. He probably hasn’t given me a though since.

I meant become more religious, but I get it.
I went to an Islamic school too. It wasn’t very good at all.
No taken, but I think the university he goes to is purely Islamic, it’s in Indonesia.

Not to mention lifes short, you'll be dead b4 u k it. Also, day of judgement is 50000 years and you'll probably be in your grave longer than u were alive. It's up to u if in your grave u choose to be tormented/ punished or sleep within a garden of paradise. So leave the haram. Allah's apostle SAW said if u leave a haram for the sake of, Allah replaces it w something better

Oh I thought uk. That makes sense then. Yh it would be legit then. If it as UK then nah

He’s actually not from here at all.

No offence but how would that have even worked uno? I get if it was Allah's plan then yh would've been smooth but that's long coz he's miles and miles away. He lives in Indonesia?

I guess it wouldn’t have. My mom and dad think he was using me, I really don’t believe he would.
Yes currently he lives there but originally from India.

So he's not even from the UK. That wouldn't have worked uno coz it would've been long. The girl I liked was from London and she's only studying dentistry in Bulgaria bc her teachers screwed her over w worse grades then her mock in 2020. Some grades were good but her biology and chemistry were muggin her off. Dentistry is hard to get into in the UK and she didn't want a gap year so she's studying in Bulgaria.

Yes I realise that, so best it ended when it did I suppose.
That’s unfortunate, it is really hard to get in, in the UK, the dentist who I currently nurse who is a new graduate, said she only got one offer when she had 9 A* at GCSE and 6 A* at A-level, I mean does it get better than that?
She will gain a lot of experience from studying abroad, it’ll do her good. You never know, when she’s back, maybe you’ll meet again with better circumstances.

Yh true idk. Also sect wise we r different. Knew her for over a year and never knew she was a shia till later.

Yh true those r good grades. 6 A levels is bc she took the old format of A levels and u could do more then bc it wasn't as intense but still impressive.

Oh I guess that complicates things further.
We were both Sunni.

This was 6 years ago, because she’s only 24, but yes they probably were easier then.
It’s seriously hard though, I got rejected last year, hopefully not again.