Original post by AnonymousOkay, so we went out last night. As soon as I saw him, I reached in and hugged him and told him 'I promised u a hug cuz you were down so here it is'. Then we grabbed dinner and sat by the beach. I got him a customized bracelet made of lava stones and crystals that apparently de-stresses and brings positive energy (metaphorically since I'm somewhat skeptical of that lol). He loved it and I also got him a Harry Potter notebook since he's a big fan (like me haha).
He played some funny clips from YouTube on his phone and we watched while we ate. And the whole time, I was really thinking about how I can bring up the topic of the poem and tell him to read it off my phone. I was really nervous but I was close to doing it, however, randomly and out of the blue, a guy I used to date called me. This guy is bad news and I honestly haven't spoken to him for years, but he just. called randomly. I ignored the call and at that point, I really distracted and I started thinking why would he call, what does he want, etc. And my thoughts were distracted. At the same time, this guy gets a phone call as well from his friend who's at the hospital and had some serious injuries. And he was quite upset about it and I tried my best to comfort him. But all this to me was a sign that maybe I should hold off and tell/confess my feelings to him another time. My best friend texted me saying 'DO IT', but I couldn't. It had to be done another time. I was upset because I really wanted to know where we stood that night. Sigh. And then when I dropped him home, we hugged again, and then I told him 'I wrote something that I wanted you to read, but next time'. Oh and I also told him 'you're special too, you know,' cuz he told me that the first week we met. He smiled and my heart literally melted.
And then later, he texted me thanking me for a great time and for the gifts and that he had an amazing time, and that I really helped lift his mood and spirits up. I responded back saying "you're very welcome. You're so adorable, you deserve all the happiness in this world. And I really love spending time with you. Whenever we hang out, I feel so happy and I get those positive vibes. You're amazing and smart and unique and so much more special than you give yourself credit for. And about the thing I wrote, I'll let you read it next time because I'm too shy to say it and I express myself better through writing."
Sigh. I had such a lovely dream about him last night, that we hugged for a long time and he told me that he was into me.
Btw, he kept saying he's guilty and feels bad because I'm doing his project and I told him I'm the one who insisted and to stop feeling guilty. Then I told him once I'm done, I'll let you read it and see if it's okay and then you'll tell me what changes to do, things to add, etc. He was like ok but we will meet up for that and I will be sitting with you rather than you emailing it to me. So that kinda made me happy cuz we'll be meeting again soon like in a few days (or till I'm done with his project which is due in like 8 days). So now I just to work on his paper, finish it, and then we'll meet again to discuss it. And after that, we might grab some dinner and I'm thinking I'll just let him read the poem I wrote him in his car after dinner.
So that's the update so far. Sorry it's long.