I'm currently a year 12 student , on track to being predicted A*AA/A*A*A , however I am going back a year to restart two of my a levels, continuing the one through to year 13 due to my mental health significantly depleting
I feel incredibley sad to have to go back , but there's no possible way i can continue with my studies at the moment with the way- I knwo that this will be the best option for me so that i can use the free time I'll now have to get in a better place mentally in preperation for the next academic year where i'll be able to give it my very best shot
Going back in two of my subjects will mean that I'm still at sixth form whilst my current friends / peers have left . Also when I start uni I wont be with anyone my age most likely
I know this sounds so pedantic ,and obnoxious but I keep thinking I'm ruining stuff for myself ,and that I'm not fulfilling this idealistic plan i was once following that no longer exists .
I just fear I'll be alone , and that , that feeling will stick with me forever