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    I haven't posted in here for a while and I thought I was getting better but today I realised that my anxiety is still really bad. I had an interview today which I had to cancel due to the anxiety. I couldn't stop having panic attacks and I kept crying. I just feel like **** right now and it seems like I'm never going to find a job. I really wanted the job and now it won't be possible. I don't know what to do anymore; nothing I've tried is working. I'm such an idiot. :bawling:
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    lol whatever tf that was.
    Least i swore at them, dream time me is sassy
    and lol i could taste it and distinctly remember eating it but as usual wasnt real.
    but dw bc 'they're just dreams'

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    Anyone had experience with sleep paralysis? Had it a few times recently, when dozing off or waking back up. I know it's not harmful, but it's spooky!
    Also having a few experiences where idk if things are a dream/ reality.
    This definitely isn't due to a lack of sleep..
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    I haven't posted in here for a while and I thought I was getting better but today I realised that my anxiety is still really bad. I had an interview today which I had to cancel due to the anxiety. I couldn't stop having panic attacks and I kept crying. I just feel like **** right now and it seems like I'm never going to find a job. I really wanted the job and now it won't be possible. I don't know what to do anymore; nothing I've tried is working. I'm such an idiot. :bawling:
    You could always call them to explain, and ask for another chance
    Job interviews are nerve wracking for anyone, especially people with anxiety, so don't be too hard on yourself!
    What have you been trying to do to help the anxiety?
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    (Original post by Ezme39)
    Anyone had experience with sleep paralysis? Had it a few times recently, when dozing off or waking back up. I know it's not harmful, but it's spooky!
    Also having a few experiences where idk if things are a dream/ reality.
    This definitely isn't due to a lack of sleep..
    I've had sleep paralysis a few times and I find it awful. The whole not being able to move or speak thing really freaks me out. Thankfully, it only happens really rarely. I find it odd that I experience it though as I always move around a lot when I sleep and it's something that people always complain about!

    Never had the dream/reality thing though so can't help there unfortunately.
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    (Original post by Ezme39)
    Anyone had experience with sleep paralysis? Had it a few times recently, when dozing off or waking back up. I know it's not harmful, but it's spooky!
    Also having a few experiences where idk if things are a dream/ reality.
    This definitely isn't due to a lack of sleep..
    Not had sleep paralysis, not knowing dream/reality thing I get a lot though. People find it strange but it's all stuff that *could* happen so don't know how I'm meant to know. When I first wake up it's fine but then later in the day I just assume that stuff is true or whatever and get in a mess. Not found anything that helps it but you're not the only one at least


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    (Original post by Ezme39)
    Anyone had experience with sleep paralysis? Had it a few times recently, when dozing off or waking back up. I know it's not harmful, but it's spooky!
    Also having a few experiences where idk if things are a dream/ reality.
    This definitely isn't due to a lack of sleep..
    I get this often used to get it just once a month but now I get it a few times a week. Its terrifying. Sometimes I see words on the wall or a face while I'm 'paralysed' and then once I come out of it a min or so later, I take a huge panic attack. Doesn't matter how often I experience this, it still creeps me the hell out for me the biggest triggers for it are lack of sleep for a few days, heightened panic or OCD throughout the day or if I am feeling restless and highly strung before bed. I can tell when I am going to get it. Its almost like a migraine aura in a way, I feel all weird and spacey just before I go to bed, its hard to explain and I always say to my partner that I think I'll get it tonight and an hour or two later, I have woke up with. Sorry to hear you suffer from sleep paralysis too :hugs:
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    (Original post by LesPaul_Player91)
    I've had sleep paralysis a few times and I find it awful. The whole not being able to move or speak thing really freaks me out.
    Good to know I'm not the only one! I feel almost silly getting so freaked out by it..

    (Original post by furryface12)
    People find it strange but it's all stuff that *could* happen so don't know how I'm meant to know. When I first wake up it's fine but then later in the day I just assume that stuff is true or whatever and get in a mess. Not found anything that helps it but you're not the only one at least
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    Same here! Like, sometimes it's things like receiving text messages/ phone calls etc... and then when I check the call history, I realise it hadn't really happened.

    (Original post by Spock's Socks)
    I get this often used to get it just once a month but now I get it a few times a week. Its terrifying. Sometimes I see words on the wall or a face while I'm 'paralysed' and then once I come out of it a min or so later, I take a huge panic attack. Doesn't matter how often I experience this, it still creeps me the hell out for me the biggest triggers for it are lack of sleep for a few days, heightened panic or OCD throughout the day or if I am feeling restless and highly strung before bed. I can tell when I am going to get it. Its almost like a migraine aura in a way, I feel all weird and spacey just before I go to bed, its hard to explain and I always say to my partner that I think I'll get it tonight and an hour or two later, I have woke up with. Sorry to hear you suffer from sleep paralysis too :hugs:
    This is really interesting. I've heard it can be worse when people are more stressed etc, although that doesn't seem to be the case with me.
    And now you've mentioned it, I think I get that sort of spacey feeling too - I might try paying more attention to it next time.
    Thanks for replying x
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    (Original post by Ezme39)
    Anyone had experience with sleep paralysis? Had it a few times recently, when dozing off or waking back up. I know it's not harmful, but it's spooky!
    Also having a few experiences where idk if things are a dream/ reality.
    This definitely isn't due to a lack of sleep..
    Sleep paralysis is ****ing terrifying. My biggest worry is that I had some accident and I'm in hospital in a coma, unable to reply to my loved ones. A few times I've "heard" like doctors and my parents and wife around me. I get so scared that I'll get stuck like that.

    And yeah, sometimes I don't know what reality is and where the dream ends.
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    (Original post by LesPaul_Player91)
    Thanks

    Yeah, I think ultimately for me it was just so intense and caused me so much stress that tipped me over the edge. I'd end up burning myself out getting an assignment in and then ended up needing time to recover meaning I was behind with the next one and so the cycle went on. It also doesn't help that the degree is pretty much completely different from last year when I took my leave of absence and so there were a few modules I couldn't stand and caused me a lot of stress. Live and learn I guess. For most of the year I've been miserable or just not feeling anything. It doesn't help that due to the workload I was too exhausted to socialise or just didn't have the time so I don't really have any friends who are still around, I've got one who I see a bit but it's a stark contrast to a couple of years ago.

    Already freaking out about my GP appointment tomorrow, I really don't like my one in my uni town and I've had terrible experiences with the NHS here but it's literally just to get a note about what's been going on for the extenuating circumstances form, I plan on getting proper help when I get back home.

    I'm in halls temporarily over the summer as my rent was up on my last place and it's causing me a few problems. My housemates are pretty loud and it's starting to annoy me. I mean I know because I'm autistic I'm more sensitive to sensory stuff but it seems all they want to do is party and stay up all night. I mean, I get it, I'm odd in that I'm doing a dissertation over the summer when everyone else is relaxing but it's starting to annoy me and I don't know how to confront them about it. It also doesn't help that the walls in this place seem to be so thin, I can hear what's going on a floor below perfectly. After I've been staring at a screen all day trying to write my dissertation I really just need to come back and be away from sensory stimuli for an hour to recover so hearing loud conversations all night really isn't helping. I think I may go back to my Dad's for the weekend to escape from the noise.
    Sounds very difficult with the housing situation I'm glad the GP visit went OK, at least - that's something positive
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    (Original post by The_Lonely_Goatherd)
    Sounds very difficult with the housing situation I'm glad the GP visit went OK, at least - that's something positive
    Yeah, it's tough It's the lesser of two evils really as I tried commuting in from my Dad's but it got too stressful and I was getting exhausted. There's something about uni accommodation that is inherently noisy though I've found - moreso tthan the private halls I was in before.

    Yeah, I'm relieved about the GP appointment, I was freaking out about it - I really hate one on one meetings as I find it so overwhelming but she was great - in spite of the fact I was stimming like crazy and obviously feeling overwhelmed she didn't make me feel awkward so for once a good experience here

    Got an extension on my dissertation, it'll still be a rush job and I'm not happy with it but at least I have some breathing space now and it can be as good as it can be. Seeing the GP and explaining everything made me realise how much of a mess I've been for months. I really should have got help sooner, I'm really not as stable as I thought I was
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    (Original post by LesPaul_Player91)
    Yeah, it's tough It's the lesser of two evils really as I tried commuting in from my Dad's but it got too stressful and I was getting exhausted. There's something about uni accommodation that is inherently noisy though I've found - moreso tthan the private halls I was in before.

    Yeah, I'm relieved about the GP appointment, I was freaking out about it - I really hate one on one meetings as I find it so overwhelming but she was great - in spite of the fact I was stimming like crazy and obviously feeling overwhelmed she didn't make me feel awkward so for once a good experience here

    Got an extension on my dissertation, it'll still be a rush job and I'm not happy with it but at least I have some breathing space now and it can be as good as it can be. Seeing the GP and explaining everything made me realise how much of a mess I've been for months. I really should have got help sooner, I'm really not as stable as I thought I was
    Do you need to be at uni much now that you are just working on your diss? Like are you using lots of the library's books, or are they ones you can take home and just read at your dad's? It sounds like where you are is very noisy :sadnod:

    Sometimes we can be the worst ones at realising that we're a bit of a mess Not your fault at all, so don't feel bad about it :hugs:
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    (Original post by The_Lonely_Goatherd)
    Do you need to be at uni much now that you are just working on your diss? Like are you using lots of the library's books, or are they ones you can take home and just read at your dad's? It sounds like where you are is very noisy :sadnod:

    Sometimes we can be the worst ones at realising that we're a bit of a mess Not your fault at all, so don't feel bad about it :hugs:
    I move out on 5th September and I'm going back to my Mum's near London so I'll soon be free of the noise. I've applied for a SCONUL card so I can use the uni libraries in London before the deadline. I'll also be at my Dad's this Friday-Monday so after that it's only a few days really as I plan on moving my stuff out next weekend and staying at my Dad's. It is a pain though, it also doesn't help that I'm really stressed and anxious at the moment as that means I get extra sensitive to noise. It does annoy me somewhat as I did state I was on the autistic spectrum so needed to be somewhere quiet and houses tend to be noisier as people are up and down stairs to use the bathroom etc. I think it's a sign how bad things have got for me in the last couple of weeks because I never thought it was a huge problem over the last month.

    Thanks :hugs:I'm hoping the meds may help me see things more clearly. I've also realised that I really need to do what suits me in life and not try and do stuff that I'm not suited to. I had good reasons for doing the MA though but it was just too much stress
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    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    Sleep paralysis is ****ing terrifying. My biggest worry is that I had some accident and I'm in hospital in a coma, unable to reply to my loved ones. A few times I've "heard" like doctors and my parents and wife around me. I get so scared that I'll get stuck like that.

    And yeah, sometimes I don't know what reality is and where the dream ends.
    Ah gosh, I can imagine it would feel so much worse when you 'hear' things like that
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    I had a really great day out today. One of the best I've had for months, even though I took a few panic attacks. I hate how though whenever I get home from being out, especially on a long day out, my nerves are 10 times worse and I get panic after panic and I cant sit still and everything sets me off. Maybe it's just from exposing myself to anxiety causing situations while out that leaves me so highly strung for the rest of the day? I dunno.

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    (Original post by Spock's Socks)
    I had a really great day out today. One of the best I've had for months, even though I took a few panic attacks. I hate how though whenever I get home from being out, especially on a long day out, my nerves are 10 times worse and I get panic after panic and I cant sit still and everything sets me off. Maybe it's just from exposing myself to anxiety causing situations while out that leaves me so highly strung for the rest of the day? I dunno.

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    Yeah, I think in evolution that's like your body being prepared to respond to a threat... so if you've had a day of facing 'threats', you will be more ready to respond to the next threat- in case you are still in danger. Except with OCD/ anxiety, the 'threats' are perceived rather than real, so it's just highly inconvenient! :/
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    The voices are back :banghead:
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    (Original post by usycool1)
    The voices are back :banghead:
    I'm so sorry to hear that usy. :console: Are you on any medication? Maybe worth increasing it or perhaps trying something different? Either way, I'd advise telling your keyworker/psychiatrist. You can get through this. :hugs:
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    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    I'm so sorry to hear that usy. :console: Are you on any medication? Maybe worth increasing it or perhaps trying something different? Either way, I'd advise telling your keyworker/psychiatrist. You can get through this. :hugs:
    Thanks man, will be sure to tell my psychiatrist :hugs:

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