Your post is fine where it is, even if it wasn't we never de anon a post.(Original post by Anonymous)
Hello everyone, I am sorry to the moderators if this is in the wrong place, I just wanted to remain anonymous.
It sounds like you've been going through a really rough time at the moment, the pressure of an impending deadline for an essay was bad enough, I can't imagine how hard it must be when you feel so isolated.(Original post by Anonymous)
I am at my wits end here, and feel like I can't go on. I am a Law student at Oxbridge and I just can't cope. I have an essay due tomorrow, 2000 words and I haven't even started as I've felt so low that any reading I have done for it has just went above me. I hand NO ONE to talk to here, as I am from a state school and the majority of the people at my college are from independent schools and want nothing to do with an ugly little pleb like me. Worse of all, I have very limited family and have lost contact with all my friends from school. I really don't know what to do anymore. I know I have depression but am afraid to get it diagnosed by the doctor in case it effects my future employment prospect. I am also worried what will happen when I fail this essay. I can only possibly think of 800 of the 2000 words to write, and even those are rambling on. Honestly, since i've come here the isolation has caused me to fee so low that I'e lost all of the intelligence and motivation which got me here, I bet a GCSE student would get a higher mark in this essay than me. Am I going to be kicked out when I fail? I have contacted the Nightline for anonymous support, but all they can do is listen and not advise, so they can't really help me much. I'm too scared to see my tutor, as I know she'll kick me out.
Literally feeling so low that when I saw the lecturer who said 'I bet it's all gone beyond whoosh for you' in front of the whole class publicly exposing me as an idiot I was about to jump in front of a bus in his view, but he looked away and wouldn't have cared anyway. What is the point anymore? I've worked so hard from a state school to get here, yet I feel so stupid now and have NO friends whatsoever. I wish that God would spare another victim of Ebola and take me instead, as I am a worthless idoit with no future, friends or anyone who cares. I'm going to FAIL this essay, and get kicked out and my life will be worthless.
You say you've been in touch with Nightline, have you thought about having a chat with the Samaritans as well? (http://www.samaritans.org/ ). Again, they can only listen and give advice, but sometimes it can help to talk to someone and get everything out in the open. Your university will also have some sort of mental health support, they should be able to help you find some sort of support or treatment, the alternative is going to your GP and speaking to them about accessing treatment.
With your academic work, speak to your tutor. Universities don't want students to fail, there's lots of help for you but you need to go to them to get the ball rolling, this means having a chat with your personal tutor and telling her how you've been struggling, you should be able to have this conversation with her in confidence. You may even be able to claim extenuating circumstances for this essay.
I hope things get better for you soon.
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