What's lead to this ?
I just can't fake it anymore watch
- 14-04-2016 10:32
- 14-04-2016 10:53
I am in the same position. I can't even go out with my friends because of embarrasement. I have been failing my whole life. I was fired from my first job because i was clueless but got another job and I am doing really well on this part time job(aiming for the manager post). I failed my uni interviews/exams so i had to go through clearing and finally got into a uni at last. I was so happy and relieved. So I went to uni and after few months they kicked me out because I failed one assignment resubmission. My attendance was 100%. I know it was my fault but i think it was a bit unfair for kicking me out just for failing one essay because i know a lot of people who got a third chance. Now i don't know what i am doing with my life. I stay at home all day, hearing my parents swearing at me. They call me ****, idiot, embarrassment to the family, eating and wasting their money, compare me to other people, tell me it's better for me to die because my existence doesn't matter. I just don't know what to do with life, don't know what i want to do. In three years time, all my friends will be graduating but i don't want to be like this a loser. I am scared I will fail again if i go uni.Last edited by roro123.; 14-04-2016 at 10:57.
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(Original post by BWV1007)
- 14-04-2016 10:56
I'm so sorry that your parents are ******* unsupportive. Do you have close friends you can talk to? Are you taking meds? Have you been to therapy?
I feel like the lack of confidence has made me more miserable and so I struggle to do anything without overthinking.Last edited by Deyesy; 16-04-2016 at 17:51.
(Original post by Anonymous)
- 14-04-2016 10:58
I'm tired of pretending to be happy. But as a result I don't talk to people anymore and have grown distant with everyone.
I just wish I was the same optimistic 18 year old I used to be. I honestly don't see the point in living anymore. If I didn't have my religion or care about my family. I'd be dead long ago. I just want to be my old self again and get that social life I used to have. And not be constantly miserable.
(Original post by Anonymous)
- 14-04-2016 11:11
I can only really talk to my sister. I'm not on any meds or therapy. I don't get time to see the doctor and can't drive so have to ask my parents to drop me off anyway. I'm waiting until I can drive so I can do these things without sharing it with everyone.
It just seems like everything. It's hard to pinpoint. I feel like my mums mentality of caring toomuch what people think ha affected me. I can't walk down the street thinking everyone is judging the way I look, walk, talk etc. It's destroyed my confidence and I just hate what I see in the mirror.
I feel like the lack of confidence has made me more miserable and so I struggle to do anything without overthinking.
It takes sheer determination some spare time to think and a plan.
- 14-04-2016 11:33
Message me if you do want someone to talk to.