this. GL OP(Original post by doodle_333)
well you can't undo the past...
what you can do is block him and cut contact to help you move on, focus on living your life to the full to make up for missed time - take up a new hobby, learn a new skill, see friends, spend quality time with family etc, and try and make sure you've got a plan for if this happens again (e.g. warning signs) so next time you can avoid it
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