I felt exactly the same as you.(Original post by Eggsandrice)
So I've just completed my first week at ncs and about to start again on Monday.
I've only really made 4 friends 😔
Ncs isn't what I thought it'd be because basically 70% of the people all went to the same school or knew of eachother schools already or had seen eachother around in the area: at gym etc and I know no-one so I'm at a big disadvantage
I'm a confident girl
- wouldn't say I'm bad looking
- was head girl at my secondary school
- have loads of friends
It just seems to me that my self confidence has been crushed because of ncs and since everyone has pretty much formed cliques/relationships what's the point of making friends now?
I just really need some advice because I'm honestly struggling to make convo with people and just overall feel a bit crap about myself
I get the impression that the other girls there talk about me and my group finds me awkward.
Help would be appreciated, I'm even considering not attending next week
I'm not usually a conversation starter with strangers, just the type of person who speaks when spoken to. I felt left out, partly because a friend I went with I hoped would help me through it didn't give me the support I needed to get through it. Nobody really wanted to hang around with me or go in pairs with me, I just went with whoever was avaliable. Yet in school, I had developed quite a few decent friendships but here I felt destroyed and shattered.
I skipped week 2 and now I've dropped out completely, having also went home on Wednesday of week 1. My mum just thought it was best for me and now I'm going out on days to places with family and I'm starting voluntary work at a place I want to be at weekly. I'm starting the road to recovering my self confidence.
It isn't for everyone. Don't feel yourself pressured to have to do it because it's advertised as being amazing.
And actually passed?