Mental Health Support Society Mk XIV

I feel worse than grieving. Hurts so bad and I want it to stop. Struggling so much and dont know what to do.

. Yeah I'm not too bad. Work was less busy today so a little less stressed now!

Oh no Well done for getting through it

That's annoying :/ Haha, cuddly toys can be awesome I brought like 5 smaller stuffed toys to Uni
Hope you've had a nice time at your mums

Off to supermarket, get some nice food/something for dinner, then watching a film, and just have a relaxing evening Been pretty down today Just feel lonely and sort of just lost with life and this holiday/what to do :/

Citalopram, i believe it is. It's one of the first meds they give for treating depression, it was in my case also.

Most meds they give you for depression are called SSRIs (selective serotonin re-uptake inhibitor). I could describe how it works, but wikipedia does it better than me :d These types of meds take up to two months to fully take effect, side effects can be rough for the first two weeks, but they subside after that.

My experience with it was that it affected my sleep quite a bit, so i took them in the morning with breakfast. I recommend taking most meds with food because they can give you indigestion on an empty stomach.

If you find after a few months that they really aren't cutting it for you, you can always ask your doc for a higher dose, or if it really doesn't agree with you, ask for something different. There are a lot of meds out there, it can take a while to find what works for you, so don't feel defeated if this first one doesn't work as you hope

Movies are good Sorry it's been rough Anything in particular?


Haha, I still feel as though I should probably try and cut down Writing (official-y) emails to people is the worst - always wanting to stick in a "" or something Ah awesome Off to sainsbury's in a bit, might pick up some more Noted. I'm not the biggest fan of blue either, don't know why Good for writing key words/points!

:/ Sounds horrible - yes! Glad you're feeling better now (?)

Need to practice though, haven't driven in this car much at all, I'm so terrible even just reversing out the drive

Aww, well hopefully the wait'll be over soon/you can be there and have a blast I'm at Warwick Sadly not - need to give him away/have him adopted by the end of this summer really Known him for 5 years and it's really sad.

Celebration sounds good! (so that's today? Have fun!) Drink enough? Is there a quota? Hope you have a good time

Sounds nice As do I, but would've been nice to have friends about too really That's true, sorry

Haha, indeed Thanks You too!
Yesterday watched some BBC3 in the evening, which was fun, now just off to supermarket then going to have tea and watch Perks of being a Wallflower Not sure whether to cook/get a ready meal or something
How're you doing?


Hi Arif! Sounds like you've been through a lot! Glad a lot of it's behind you though Well done!
Heartache is the worst Not stupid things! I don't know what sort of support you've had but could you talk to your GP or counsellor about feeling low atm? I know that my low moments can get worse/depression-y when I have stress and things, though I guess you will know more about yourself with that - but it's important you can get help if you're not 100% right
Welcome again to the society!
Phil


Haha, oh no! I'm sure he won't mind Bought a couple of star trek films 2nd hand and also some stuff in tesco but otherwise not - most shops were closed (Sunday ) Charity shops are the best though!
Silly farmers Yeah I remember you saying about the BMX :/
Mulan's so good!!! I'll make a man out of you!! Haha, I always end up rewinding films when I watch them because I try and multitask, then fail and have to go back to hear what they just said
Oh Yeah that is annoying Hopefully though as you weren't too far out from your offer, retakes should make it okay? Are you reapplying this year?
Indeed Feeling sort of lonely without anyone too though Even if I also complain about parents being about - I'd sort of just like them half there Think I'm going to save nice walks and cinema for when they're here - as things to do when escaping!
Oh no Sorry things are being odd then - I find it irritating when my moods changes a lot, physical stuff too doesn't sound fun at all Can you see GP or something at all about downhill-ness?



I know that last year in first term I just wrote everything I spent down on a spreadsheet? Could just write it on paper too, but this made totalling stuff up easier Had a column for what it was, it's "category" (there being 2 - "food" and "fun" ), and how much it was - I don't know, I think it sort of helped, mostly with knowing how much I vaguely had left to spend/whether I could splash out or not It's start of your term/living where you are though, and you've had exams and stressfulness - I'd expect to spend more

Sorry about exam for today, you can always retake as you say though


That's awesome


Might there be some sort of day time sports club nearby or a bit further away - I'd guess saturday ones would be during the day rather than night/evening? I've always personally liked stuff like badminton and table tennis
Sorry, that probably isn't much help I'll try and have a think about clubs/things to do though
Sending lots of hugs


Was the appointment okay? I hope the 2 new meds help

Oh sorry I'd forgotten about that, yeah I suppose that might not be the best then

Oh wow! Well done That sounds brilliant Plus Maths is the bestest

Ah okay Can you still skype and things though? I suppose at least he isn't further away That sorta makes sense I'm sure it'll all work out fine though

Thanks! So do I


Hope everything goes okay wrt therapy Well done on not texting them


Go tasha Well done Sorry things are up and down a lot Sending hugs






Well done I'm guessing you did indeed get up for 6.30? Hope you get some sleep okay, sorry young people were annoying :/


Oh no Well done for getting through it

That's annoying :/ Haha, cuddly toys can be awesome I brought like 5 smaller stuffed toys to Uni
Hope you've had a nice time at your mums


Eurgh I hate wind I don't think many people would choose to go out for something like that if it isn't their weather
How're you doing recently? I guess making plans for Uni? But maybe not


Sorry gf is being a pain Completely understand not wanting to be at home/with parents - particularly when they're not yours! Not sure what to advise, but


I was going to say perhaps check with your GP but then it sounds as though this person knows their stuff so might not be the most informative trip necessarily Is there anything else they give to help with B12 deficiency besides supplements? I guess it's possibly sort of good if it is something like that? A pain but at least it's a cause/you know why you have these symptoms?

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Off to supermarket, get some nice food/something for dinner, then watching a film, and just have a relaxing evening Been pretty down today Just feel lonely and sort of just lost with life and this holiday/what to do :/

That's the one! Theres also one beginning with a p, why do meds always have like big posh names.
I've been on 3 different meds in the past, so I'm hoping this one works.
My boyfriend and dad wanted me to get help because i get uncontrolable.

What rough side effects happen? I have to go back to see my GP in two weeks to see how im getting on/ if i need a higher dose.
Do you struggle to sleep on them? Or do you sleep a lot?

Thank you so much.

I love you all.

I found they kept me awake a lot, hence why i took them in the morning. Another thing i noticed was what they called "inorgasma", inability to reach climax (or at least very difficult). So depending on your relationship with your bf, that's another thing to consider. It may not affect girls as much, or your bf may be so good that you don't need to worry x]

I did have times in the first week where i would suddenly feel quite down, and moodswing a bit, but considering i was already feeling wretched at the time it didn't make much of a difference to me.

I assume that the two meds you got work with each other, so hopefully the side effects won't be that bad

EDIT: Propanolol is more commonly known as beta blockers, in my experience these were freakin amazing, it almost entirely took away my feelings of anxiety and panic. The only side effects you generally get are cold hands and feet, which is nothing really considering what they do

Good to hear your doc is so nice, i wish mine was like that instead of basically pushing me out the door before i've finished talking about what i went there for >_>

I'm so alone. I'm empty and hollow and alone, even when surrounded by people.


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Thank you for the information, i defiantly won't be taking them at night then. My doctor never mentioned anything about it keeping me up.
We don't really do that stuff, lol.

I hope you feel better now. That's great. i don't really mind being cold, ill just wrap up. I like being cosy and warm anyway, even in the summer. Its the comfort.

I'm so sorry to hear about your doctor. they sound horrible. I used to have doctors like that but i moved to a different doctors and they're brilliant. Have loads of time for you and really listen. Maybe you could change doctors?

I often feel the same :/ Even when seeing my family, the minute i'm alone again in a room all the thoughts and feelings come rushing back.

Wish i could say something that would genuinely help



I hope you didn't feel offended, just thought i'd mention it just in case.

Yeah, im planning on changing the practice entirely, they have even made me pay for duplicate sicknotes when they got lost by ESA... they seemed to blame each other for it and just made me pay out my own pocket. Should of changed a while ago but anxiety is lots of fun >_> Always putting things off.

I often feel the same :/ Even when seeing my family, the minute i'm alone again in a room all the thoughts and feelings come rushing back.

Wish i could say something that would genuinely help



I hope you didn't feel offended, just thought i'd mention it just in case.

Yeah, im planning on changing the practice entirely, they have even made me pay for duplicate sicknotes when they got lost by ESA... they seemed to blame each other for it and just made me pay out my own pocket. Should of changed a while ago but anxiety is lots of fun >_> Always putting things off.

I don't see any future for me... I can't ever see myself having a life or being happy

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All i would suggest is to complain to higher authorities, and keep taking it higher until something gets done. Ironically, despite having issues, we have to fight real hard to get the help we need and deserve, i wish i could give the right answers for you.



What were they, if you don't mind me asking?

it was. Hope you've been ok today!

Haha, oh no! I'm sure he won't mind Bought a couple of star trek films 2nd hand and also some stuff in tesco but otherwise not - most shops were closed (Sunday ) Charity shops are the best though!
Silly farmers Yeah I remember you saying about the BMX :/
Mulan's so good!!! I'll make a man out of you!! Haha, I always end up rewinding films when I watch them because I try and multitask, then fail and have to go back to hear what they just said
Oh Yeah that is annoying Hopefully though as you weren't too far out from your offer, retakes should make it okay? Are you reapplying this year?
Indeed Feeling sort of lonely without anyone too though Even if I also complain about parents being about - I'd sort of just like them half there Think I'm going to save nice walks and cinema for when they're here - as things to do when escaping!
Oh no Sorry things are being odd then - I find it irritating when my moods changes a lot, physical stuff too doesn't sound fun at all Can you see GP or something at all about downhill-ness?