But the 'absence of evidence..' argument is legit. Maybe the Egyptian God Thoth magiced the universe into existence. Can I prove it? No. But can i categorically disprove it? No, I can't, no-one can. Look I'm not religious. I'm not 'spiritual'. I have no dog in this race. But to say you know for certainty there is no higher power in the universe, for certain, is an act of faith. You can't know that. It's impossible to know that. Such is the nature of the ineffable. It has to be agnostic, one way or the other, no-one can possibly, ever, know.
Is it really that intense? Would I cope?