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    (Original post by Noodlzzz)
    Messaged my care co-ordinator that I'm struggling since leaving hospital. Feel like a failure
    Hey, join the club, I feel like one, too at the moment :hugs:. It's good that you messaged him/her though, being active about it, I think is a good sign!
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    Hey, join the club, I feel like one, too at the moment :hugs:. It's good that you messaged him/her though, being active about it, I think is a good sign!
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    (Original post by Idle)
    I think they have been a bit over the top tbh, yeah I am not great in terms of mood and motivation but that is about the full extent of it. Since I need to taper off my current meds and start the new ones I'm going to most likely get worse before I get better so apparently they need to 'monitor' me but I have always called up if I am seriously bad in the past so :iiam:

    Also i'm hoping my mum won't find out as no doubt she will get seriously arsey and claim I am making the whole thing up.
    I guess they're either overreacting or else they just want to get to the problem before it properly develops. Either way I hope they manage to be helpful without getting in your way too much. :hugs:

    (Original post by The_Lonely_Goatherd)
    Wolfie: TLG does NOT row. Rowing is exercise :ninja: :p: :sadnod:
    Can't fault you on that logic! :nah: Maybe get one of your minions to row you about then. If minionless, suggest you acquire some.

    (Original post by asdfgah)
    Chrisofsmeg, I think he was called.

    ---

    Have had some really traumatic news, which isn't what either of us needed. Had some support from the university mental health coordinator. Everything is a bit of a mess and I can't write anymore, but if anyone could send positive thoughts this way they would be much appreciated. Might not be able to post anymore for a while but will do if I can. Things are really **** but we are both safe.
    I remember him! :hi:


    Sending massive droves of positive thoughts your way. :jumphug:


    (Original post by Meaty_man)
    Hey all, everyone seems alright, as alright as it goes for us

    I swear i was on the verge of a panic attack minutes ago...but im steadily getting better now. I think it may be because of my sertraline i took 10 mins before going out...im so confused about whether or not its working. My mood still swings a lot, im not sure what to think

    I've been on it for close to 2 months now, but i wasn't told to have a break from coming off of citalopram, so im not sure if it was interacting with the sertraline for a while or still is, urgh.

    I hate not knowing what is going on,especially when its my own body and mind :cry:

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    Have you ever been on mood stabilisers? I got put on them cos my mood was up and down all the time. Admittedly they did nothing for me, but maybe you'd have better luck. It's possible the sertraline's having a partial effect, but you might benefit from having another drug added in too (extra fun! :awesome:).

    (Original post by sunfowers01)
    I'm tired of life
    :hugs:

    (Original post by Anonymous)
    What's the point in living if you will never be great? I'll never change the world for the better, I'll never be the first to climb Everest or the first to achieve something, I'll never write a beautiful piece of music, or write a play or a book that will bring joy to millions, I'll never be in a position of power to change the world for the better, I will not be celebrated or remembered by the world when I'm gone .... I swear I will never listen to music, read books or poetry ever again, it just makes me feel worse about myself that I will never do something like that. I have all these thoughts in my head about life and I don't have the intelligence to express it and it's killing me.
    You never know what you might achieve in life. Besides, there's plenty of enjoyment to be had from the little things too - I've been fixing up a cage for my future pet mice, and it's pretty satisfying even just doing that.

    (Original post by Magdatrix >_<)
    Too angry right now. The so-called student support services at uni are being as unhelpful as usual. Apparently the 5-month-old-letter from the most annoying psychiatrist bloke ever isn't "evidence enough" for them to just give me a damn smaller room for my exams.

    Literally don't care about anything else, that's ALL I WANTED FROM THEM!

    Think my current frustration has come from re-reading that letter though, it's so rubbish. The guy didn't even spell my name right for a start. It just reminded me though of how much 'professionals' can't seem to be arsed to help out - I quote Magdatrix "would greatly benefit from therapeutic support, but due to her current lifestyle as an undergraduate student, involving splitting time spent between university and her home town, it is not really possible for her to engage in long term therapy at the moment. I think that this treatment option may need to be considered for her once she is settled in one geographical location (presumably as a post graduate)."

    WTF

    and how do you do those yellow smileys that spin around looking all annoyed-like?
    :hugs: Have you been to your disability support office or personal tutor? They might be able to sort student support services out a bit and get them to give you your smaller room.

    (Original post by Anon420)
    Hi all!

    Long time no speak to a lot of you, I see some familiar names around still. I hope some of you remember me I was last online last December! I'm doing very well mentally, and I should be starting my degree in law this October.

    I'm doing that well, that I've re-evaluated my life and everything, it's been quite a transformative and introspective experience the past half a year or so. I should be around checking TSR a lot more now, especially with up coming studies. So hi!
    :five: Great to hear you're feeling better, and looking forward to more positive updates!

    (Original post by Robskeh)
    I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety about a few years ago.

    Things have always felt different from a very young age I would constantly get low moods and be lazy and have a poor outlook on life. I thought it was just me but it started getting really bad at 16 and it's just been pretty much downhill from there.

    Since that time I'm still waiting on therapy, it's been nearly 3 years now and the doctors round my area have been so unhelpful they just make it worst. Every time i see them they either promise me they will get on the case or have completely forgotten i even asked for it. Back in the early days i went to see a psychiatrist and she just sat there looking down on me and judging me the whole time. Nothing even happened after that consultation which is even more frustrating.

    I'm on citalopram 20mg and have been for a year, I was very reluctant to go on them and still kind of regret it as I feel it has messed me up. Luckily I'm starting to slowly cut down on them so I can completely get off such poison.

    You have to deal with the cards your given in life but I'm struggling to cope more and more. It has such a big impact on education, health, family friends and relationships. I've been doing a levels for 3 years now and will probably doing them again as I am determined to complete them. I would have given up by now but I have proved to myself I am capable. I had a good 4 months last year and did psychology AS in 4 months and got an A.

    I guess this kind of rant, just needed to put it out there on somewhere like this to connect with likeminded people.




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    Hey, welcome to the society.

    Sorry to hear you've had such a bad run of doctors - unfortunately it does happen. :sadnod: If you're keen on trying therapy, have you tried looking at charities in your area that might run programs with a shorter waiting list? Mind is worth a look at, and there might be others local to you too. You could also try moodgym, which is a free online CBT program.

    Good luck with the A levels - I'm just coming to the end of a seven year degree which was supposed to be only four years, so these things can be done!

    (Original post by SocialWorkAngel)
    hey all

    I am Ellie and I am currently studying health and social care and community mental health practice via a distance learning college. I am also studying a-levels via the same college in Sept 2013.
    i currently suffer from depression and stress due to a number of reasons and I look forward to getting to know you all
    Welcome to the society and good luck with your studies. Are you planning on going into social work then?


    (Original post by Sultana)
    How's the house (minus the horror of internetlessness, no internet was actually the sole reason I went home the other week :teehee:)?



    Oh, so you really mean it? You realise this would involve meeting me For Real in Real Life? I only just realised. You really wanna help me make plans? Do not understand why you're being so kind.

    While a door-to-door escort service would be lovely, I can't possibly ask you to come all the way down here just to go back up again. Just the price for one thing (I just looked at tickets and oh my god trains are expensive). I could probably make it to Manchester. maybe. I mean it's only one train from London. I think I will have to go beg for benzos from the doc. And I definitely don't want to stay with your parents or drag you away from them (im sure they're lovely, but I dont wanna intrude and it's your family etc), I'll take a look at what sort of accommodation there is.


    :hugs:

    I think i'm generally fine with not being skinny anymore (bones=frail, plus generally people involvement) but I don't like not being skinny and not being fit either. I feel very undisciplined and lazy. I actually really miss exercising and being fit and healthy and strong. I can only barely make it to 3 push ups atm :sad: And not just strong body, you have to be properly strong-willed to push yourself and that plus physical exertion is quite.. I can't quite find the word .. empowering?

    Obvious answer is just to start exercising again. You do make lots of improvements quickly when you're starting from nothing so would be quite gratifying. I just... can't. I don't really know why. I mean I can't exercise outside because Outside and I can't stomach the gym. Have been sort of doing some body-weight exercises but I mostly can't find the motivation to even get out of bed so is difficult to do anything consistently. So many excuses.

    Hmmm I think this isn't really a body problem, more a Sultana finds another way to hate herself for being ill problem. :lol:
    Did I answer this yet? If yes, apologies for the double answer!

    Sure I mean it. It's no hassle for me to go up to Edinburgh - probably been six months or so since I've seen my parents (can't even remember ), plus I have my cousins up there now, and hopefully a small pile of birthday presents to retrieve!

    If you can make it up to Manchester then great, otherwise I genuinely am happy to come down and pick you up. I should be eligible for a disabled railcard (you might be too?), which will get 1/3 off for me and one companion, so that will work out cheaper.

    Further alternative: Rob says if you like he'll drive us up to Edinburgh (he wants to meet my parents :woo:). However if two strange internet people is too much for you to handle then he'll understand. :hugs:


    Does sound like some exercise would be really good for you if you can manage it. Would it help to have some structure, like a weekly plan, or even an exercise class to go to? I've started going to a semi-exercise class again, and I think it's going to be pretty good for me.

    (Original post by Wilfred Little)
    Thanks for the advice mate. What would it involve to get someone sectioned? And can you recommend any numbers or support groups at all?

    It's impossible to get any sort of conversation out of Brother 1 now, you could ask him if he wants to go to the hospital and he wouldn't understand at all.



    Cheers mate.

    As said above I don't think how brother 1 feels is easy to determine. Anywhere he goes he would probably have to be dragged there, you can't just ask him because he won't understand. He's oblivious to what's going on around him, I think.
    Sorry for the late reply - moving house.

    Getting someone sectioned is pretty serious stuff - it's depriving someone of their fundamental human rights after all. So I'd really really only try going down that route if you think there's actual danger to people involved. Having said that, if you are certain that it's necessary, I'd go to your local police station and explain matters. If they refuse to do anything, I'd go to his family's GP, and if that didn't work either I'd google your local Crisis Team (in case you don't know, they're a mental health service dealing with people in particularly acute situations. However a lot of us have found them less than helpful, so I'd recommend going to police/GP first).

    In terms of general support, I'd try Mind first as they're a national mental health charity with a good reputation - they should be able to give you some good advice, and point you towards other local services.

    Really hope you manage to get this situation sorted, for the sake of all brothers concerned.

    (Original post by The_Lonely_Goatherd)
    Plus I really need a girlfriend too :p:
    Someone call for MHSS dating services? :flutter:

    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    Certain members bite.


    *looks suspiciously at superwolf*
    Some jokes never get old eh?

    (Original post by HmMusic)
    Hey everyone, bit of an update.

    Scott is gaining weight and very healthy. I've been fully discharged from the mental health unit and having my first CMHT meeting on Tuesday. Very busy with lots of appointments so not too much time to post a lot but I'm sure you'll hear more from me when things settle down a bit.

    Superwolf & Anon1, I got your post today! May have been there for a few days as the studio is not open all the time but I got them today. Anon1 - amazing handmade card, nearly made me cry but our families are here so I held it in! Superwolf - the hat is amazing! Made everyone smile hugely when I opened it. Unfortunately Scott's head is too big for it! We are wondering if it can be stretched on washing or whether it will shrink? I really really want him to wear it so I can show you guys a photo! X
    Hey! :jumphug: Glad to hear Scott's healthy and doing well, even if his head is inconveniently big. I'd try soaking the hat in cold water (hot might shrink it further) and then stretching it. If that doesn't work then measure his head and I'll make you a bigger one (possibly oversized this time so he can grow into it).

    Hope you feel like you're coping ok (although I believe it's perfectly normal not to!), and make sure you're taking some time to look after yourself as well as the baby. :hugs:

    (Original post by ParadoxSocks)
    Girlfriend is doing everything in her power to make me feel less attractive than I already feel. Been dress shopping and she's literally been making gasping noises whenever I got into anything in case I ripped it. Finally found a dress I mostly like and she just didn't have a reaction towards it at all. Not even a "you look less hideous in that than the other ones!"

    I know I'm not stunning and thin and pretty or anything but she should at least try to make me feel less like a giant fat failure at least some of the time.

    She said she's no good at shopping for women's clothes and that she has no opinion on them and that I should take somebody else. As though I have other people to take. So I started sobbing In the changing room in my underwear.

    It's my friend's wedding reception. I haven't seen him or my other college friends since gaining this weight and I just needed her to say that I looked okay. Not pretty. Just okay. The lastd dress I wore was a brown tea dress with a red and cream vintage pattern and it was stunning and everyone said it was lovely and she said I looked like old curtains.

    And she bleached my hair last week and screwed up. And then we had to bleach it again and she screwed that up too. And then she dyed it for me and missed massive sections so I went home and dyed it dark red myself but my hair is so wrecked that it's like straw and won't hold a colour so I'm now ginger too. And not a nice healthy ginger. Just had a fight in Tesco because I wanted to buy dark brown hair dye to just get rid of it and she said my hair looks dull brown and that she likes me better with red hair. I explained that red wasn't going to take because my hair is a complete mess and won't hold red pigment so she tried to reason with me to try red again.

    I feel like I'm hideous. I'm a size 18, 5 ft tall and have giant boobs and bright orange hair. It's really not a good look.

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    :console: Have you ever brought this issue up with your girlfriend? Might be time for a tactful talk about how she's not exactly being helpful.

    And I say that you're hot. :yep:
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    (Original post by bullettheory)
    I have been meaning to reply to quite a few people on here but I've had a lot on and haven't been able to.

    My mum has just been diagnosed with a form of brain tumour. I'm going back home tomorrow to see her, and hopefully she will be having surgery soon (NHS soon mind...).

    Its complicated. She has long term health problems, and is in a lot of pain. They think if they remove the tumour then she may be better again, but the tumour may not be benign and then there is obvious issues with that. Feel so guilty for feeling bad and making my girlfriend and that worry.

    Just blah. Doesn't feel real atm anyway. I'm scared its gonna hit me so hard when I get home and see her.


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    Already wished you luck, but just want to say again how much I hope you and your mum are doing ok. And it's normal for you to be feeling pretty terrible right now, so there's absolutely no need for you to be feeling guilty on top of that! :hugs:

    (Original post by PonchoKid)
    Something's going on and I don't know what to do :cry2:
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    Mice everywhere, all over me, had to have a night shower to get them off me, all over the house. The cats not killing them, she's bringing them in laughing at me.

    It's horrible.
    To top it off funeral next week that I can't go to
    And I think my bestest ever uncle may actually be about to die :cry2: I can't let it happen



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    :hugs: Mice are friendly creatures for hugging and playing with. :yes: No need to be scared of them. Have you spoken to your doctor about these experiences - things like this seem to trouble you quite often. :console:

    Really sorry to hear about your uncle.

    (Original post by VaVe)
    I feel horribly selfish posting this because it's such a small thing but I've been struggling with it for a while now. I tend to cycle between struggling to do anything and feeling like I can just about manage (with the help of meds, seriously impressed with how quickly I've improved) but being really lonely. Most of my friends from university live hours away and I don't feel like I'm close enough to any of them to go visit. My friends from college are all busy living their lives and making plans to do stuff. I get invited but it's rare that I can actually go and if I do I feel really anxious the whole time.
    It's not like I'm alone all the time either, my parents are home quite a lot and I see other family but it just feels like I don't really have a social life and friends who are my age (or that I can talk to about stuff that I don't want to talk to my family about). I do see a couple of people about 1/week or so but it's rare that we do anything and it just seems to make me feel worse after I've met up with them. One friend who I have known for about 10 years knows what's going on MH-wise but trying to explain all the really Bad stuff is hard because she doesn't understand how I can feel like I do and also she keeps trying to get me back into a relationship with my ex which I don't think is a good idea. Just feeling a bit stuck really.
    :hugs: You should never feel guilty about posting on here - besides, loneliness can be a horrible thing. Could you write up a list of hobbies etc. you could start that would bring you into contact with more people? I've done evening classes and stuff before, which helped me a bit.

    (Original post by Anonymous)
    I don't know what to do. I'm still depressed after all these years over things constantly going wrong and not having the perfect life I dreamed of. I've had so many failures with trying to get help from doctors and counsellors, and none will prescribe any antidepressants. I was trying CBT books, but they don't seem to help much and I just get bored and give up with them after a while. I keep wondering about trying counselling again, but keep hesitating due to my past experiences, and worries that I'd be too shy to speak properly about all my problems to them anyway.
    :console: Do you think part of the problem could be that you have unreasonable expectations for your life? Nobody's life is perfect, and sometimes it can be quite damaging to be always comparing how things are to how they 'should' be.

    (Original post by Sultana)
    This feels like such a terrible thing to be complaining about but it's stressing me out. It's my birthday soon and people, particularly my parents, keep asking and asking and asking what I want. Makes me feel so uncomfortable. I don't want anything and even if I did I hate asking for stuff it feels so awkward and selfish. People asking just feels like it's this expected obligation they have to fulfill and I hate that. I'd much prefer it if people just stopped with the whole birthday, christmas, capitalist materialistic bull****. It's nice if people see something they think you'd like or give some thought to a gift but not oh it's daughter no.1 birthday what unnecessary, unwanted, stuff shall we try and buy her off with so we can pretend we're good parents. Like seriously. how ****ing dare they turn around and tell me how disgusting and shameful i am and force me to hide the biggest ****ing thing in my life because it's embarrassing for her. force me to go through a ****ing court case by myself. kick me out because i have ****ing nightmares. completely refuse to acknowledge that there is anything going on for me. blame me for every single bad thing that's happened since. one huge ginormous factor in determining if you develop ptsd after trauma is the reaction and support you recieve from those around you. so if those closest to you who you're meant to be able to trust with anything to always love you and support you act with horror and disgust at you, tell you to hide it, tell you you're ruined now, tell you to ignore never mention it again or else there is no chance, hate you for letting it happen, basically just take all that blame and shame and guilt that is normal after trauma and reinforce it over and over to instill it in you as hard fact, as real because it's not just you thinking that it's the people who love you the most telling you that then guess what! you're pretty ****ing likely to get some bad **** ptsd case. and you do not get to make everything fine by cooking me dinner and buying me a ****ing mobile.
    ha apparently im pretty ****ing angry right now. sorry.
    I think you've every right to be angry. You've been treated like crap, and deserve an apology. Also mobile phones are evil. EVIL.

    (Original post by Anonymous)
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    Hello again Anon 25 here. This probably doesn't really go here, I'm just really really scared and worried and you guys are all so friendly I don't know where else to go.

    Basically - My best friend - Miss Y - is going out with another (once best) friend - Mr X. He's been being really horrible generally to her (not directly, and possibly not meaning to) - but just being neglectful, really. She's struggled with self-harm (a few years ago - him being involved with it, I think he may have struggled too, maybe) - and has had a few episodes more recently (within the last year - because of him being an arse/distant) I think sometimes she gets too clingy, but it's not going well anyway, and she's come close to ending it a few times, though never had the courage to go through with it She's really confused and also scared of how she'd cope without him.
    Me and my friend (also best friends with Miss Y) have been deliberating over the whole thing generally, and had even decided - before this next bit of new info from tonight - that it'd probably be best for them to end it. Y is just getting upset and we worry for her lots - and we reckon it'd be best for it to end before Uni, where we can comfort her - as opposed to her worrying about him the first month of uni, and then when it does end - being left relatively isolated (worst case scenario, I know) at uni to deal with the break up

    Anyway

    She's been having nightmares over the last month, and tonight she explained to me what they were about.
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    "All my nightmares are of Mr X. The last time I saw him before he went away we were going to sleep together, but before we could he kind of made me bleed, quite heavily, and it hurt. Really properly, so that I was curled up crying on his floor for half an hour. And he was really sympathetic at first, but kind of started to forget about it and I obviously was trying to pull myself together because I didn't want to disappoint him. And I kind of thought that would be the end and we'd just spend the whole time watching films or whatever, but we didn't. Like, he didn't actually make me have sex with him, but he did kind of pressure me into some stuff which he knows terrifies me but I felt like I'd let him down earlier so I kind of went along with it, even though I was in proper pain and now whenever I fall asleep I can't stop reliving it."


    I expressed that- were he any old guy I would tell her to leave him in a heart beat, and even with him being someone I used to consider a very close friend - I still feel as though she probably should.

    She keeps underplaying it and we're just worried for her - and what it could potentially lead to - could it get worse?
    "not really a big deal just me being silly"
    "It's probable just me being stupid and overthinking things he probably didn't realise how much he'd hurt me "
    "Just didn't want to let him down"
    "It's not his fault he probably thought I was okay "

    We're just really worried and scared. It was just neglectful boyfriend who was being despicable and now it's just WHOOSH. Really scary Particularly with it being someone we know, and it usually really nice. It just doesn't add up and it's scary :cry2:

    We've partly been worrying ourselves, maybe, what do you guys think? We feel as though we should try to get her to end it, but we're not sure how I personally think she might kinda want us to push her to end it, and is just confused. Maybe. I just don't know. We're both really angry and want to kinda go all bravado and tell him to f*** off and leave her alone, but we know that that wouldn't solve anything. She's said many times she's worried about him getting angry with her, and we obviously don't want to cause her more upset.

    We also feel that, if she doesn't end it/it doesn't end soon (though we're not sure on time period yet - as soon as she gets back? a week after?) - that it should be our obligation to just tell a parent/both parents and make it end - because we definitely don't want to risk anything worse/more happening. Of course we may just be being over the top I just don't know. He's been my friend and he's always been so nice and this is such a shock we're just completely spooked by what he may do

    Any advice appreciated Sorry for the long fragmented post, I'm just really scared and confused and we both just feel completely out of our depth. Completely. :cry2:

    I should mention that since that day he went on holiday for 2/3 weeks, then as soon as he got back, she went off for another 2 weeks (they didn't see each other in between) she's been away 1 week so far.

    So scared. What do we do?!?! What should we do? I guess we first off want a tactful and sensitive/delicate way of telling her how we feel - that she should end it for definite. Blarg.

    http://www.thestudentroom.co.uk/show...8#post43659348 This is her btw.
    And this is me, to him, that was a while ago though - before I knew about the spoiler ^^ http://www.thestudentroom.co.uk/show...9#post43759149

    I might well write a follow up to this tomorrow after reading it through in the morning. Any help now appreciated though, think I'll stay up another hour or more Even if it's just another forum to go ask in.

    Mods: If this thread conflicts with a rule then please at least give me a forum where I can ask this sort of thing I don't know. blarg.

    Or would you all suggest just making a thread about this? I don't know

    I think you're right that she wants help/persuading to end it, and that that's the right thing to do. If she's worried about his reaction, maybe she could break it off in a public place, with you nearby to come to the rescue? There's no way this relationship is good for her right now - irregardless of how you view what happened, the fact that she's feeling traumatised enough to be having nightmares constantly shows that she needs out of this relationship.

    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    Counting down the hours left of my life.

    I desperately need a plan out of my situation but I'm too ****ing stupid and they're too ****ing powerful. :banghead:


    I'm trying to relax, let go and forget about what's going to happen but I can't. Everytime I bring it up with my wife she goes mental, I don't need her anger I need her help it's her fault they have me by the balls. Spent the day in bed as the walls are so ****ing loud in here but I'm tired of taking things lying down I'm gonna sit here and I'm not going to let them stop me.
    :hugs: Remember they can't really hurt you, everything you're seeing and hearing is coming from inside your own head. PM me if you want to talk more in private.

    (Original post by Noodlzzz)
    Am out of hospital! :yay:
    :party:

    (Original post by PonchoKid)
    Firefly would like everyone to know she's ok where she is.
    She's allowed her phone every so often, but it's logged her out of TSR and she's forgotten her password.

    But Iv just been chatting to her, and she told me to tell everyone that she's ok, and she can still browse the thread but not comment, so she has seen people's replays to her.




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    Glad to hear she's ok, and I hope things improve for her soon.

    (Original post by asdfgah)
    Went to see my GP today, in a kind of emergency way because recent trauma has been triggering in a bad way.

    He's given me the pill again (my other doctor took me off - said it was too risky if I wasn't using it as contraception) so I've got control back over my periods. Thank ****. Cos they are tooooo triggering to deal with unexpectedly and when they're all Bad.

    Also gave me diazepam again and put it on my repeat prescription. I was so scared I would have to explain PTSD but actually I was shaking so much and just had to say realy bad anxiety and I think cos he could see my hands and legs shaking he realised I needed something.

    Am still feeling very struggly tbh. but I am on a pact not to do anything Really Bad. cant decide whether to do stuff that's A Bit Bad. or not anything.

    also making grand plans for some stuff. is gonna be good I think. not good like REALLY FUN but good like it might actually help people.
    Glad the GP was helpful. And grand plans sound intriguing. :holmes:

    (Original post by drbluebox)
    Interesting development with me, in the past 2 months have been given "support" from a paid worker who never bothers to turn up well I have 2 but they are paid 6 hours a week and I get 1 guy for a hour and another for 10 minutes who then vanishes but not before reading any letters or bills I have lying about

    Secondly I have been signed up to a mental heatlh drop in, beautiful place with own garden, conservatory, tv room, snooker room, shower room and a cafe that is dirt cheap(£2.90 for 3 course meal) as they have their own vegetable garden so use their own veg and all food is home made

    I only go in for cheap food as I am only person my age there and the rest have a lot of problems and many stink of different bodily fluids lol.
    You should make a complaint about those people, they're clearly not doing their jobs. :no:

    Wow, I could do with getting a three course meal for under £3! Sounds like a nice place, and maybe over time you'll feel more comfortable around the other people.

    (Original post by OU Student)
    It can be emailed to her. There should be a forgotten password on the log in screen.

    Just thought I'd pop my head in. Not been in here for ages. Doing ok.
    :hi: Glad to hear you're doing alright.

    (Original post by Kindred)
    That was a short two week holiday. I went early cos I couldn't cope with staying in a caravan so decided to spend the time at home. Got a phone call later... my family crashed on the motorway!! Caravan snaked (wobbled side to side), hit into both sides of the car and flipped over. Caravan and car are totalled but luckily everyone's safe.

    It's a shame cos my mother especially was really looking forward to it and worked so hard to make it as nice as possible and they didn't even make it to the first campsite.

    At least everyone's okay though. They're all staying with somebody over there tonight and my wonderful friend is sleeping over mine so I'm not alone.


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    (Original post by Noodlzzz)
    So I kind if faked my way out of hospital lalala no voices not paranoid lol wut it was all in my head. Now I'm regretting it, not the hospital bit I hated being there but no aftercare as they believe I'm well. I'm seeing my psychologist tomorrow so I think I'll talk to her but I don't really know what to do!? Advice?
    Bad Noodzzz! :naughty: I'd say be honest with your psychologist, but maybe also come up with a list of reasons why you think you're better off out of hospital, plus alternative plans for support at home. It's not like people want you in hospital if it can be avoided, just they might not have given enough thought to ways of keeping you safe outside of it.

    (Original post by Hellz_Bellz!)
    I had a really bad anxiety attack today, for a really silly reason. I just feel like it's getting worse. I get so anxious and worked up over the smallest things.

    I was wondering if anyone knew about medications for anxiety? I don't really want to be taking them but if my anxiety doesn't get any better then i might have to... I still haven't been to the doctor about it, I guess I probably should. Sigh.
    There are a few different meds used for anxiety - the main ones I know about are beta blockers, which are low on side-effects but mostly manage the physical symptoms of anxiety but not so much the mental ones, and SSRI antidepressants, which work better on the mental symptoms and make you feel less anxious overall, but people often experience worse side-effects.

    Going to the doctor is definitely a good idea - even if you decide you don't want to go on medication after all, it's still good to have your problems on record (in case you ever need signing off from work/studies) and to have had your options explained to you for future reference. You might find this information page from Mind useful as well.

    (Original post by ParadoxSocks)
    One of the girls in my group just heard that I was gay and said "ew" at me and moved away. Until this point we've been really close and we've spent every waking moment together so I am so hurt. She somehow got herself confused and now thinks that I'm not gay but people that are are "ew".

    I literally felt like the awkward 14 year old gay kid all over again.

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    (Original post by VaVe)
    Had a bad day, found it really hard to get out of bed this morning so I didn't go and help out at work (volunteering so I didn't have to go but I said I would). Got up around noon and have been having really bad thoughts all day
    Quite frustrated since I haven't felt this bad since I started taking Sertraline. Going to see my GP again next week so I might mention it then but I'm worried that it might get worse before then. It is coming with a huge helping of numb so I'm pretty safe just not feeling all that great.
    :console: If you do start feeling significantly worse then maybe see your GP sooner? At my old surgery if you phone up at 8am you can usually get a same-day appointment, or you can get an emergency appointment any time of the day.

    (Original post by Sultana)
    Did something simultaneously nice and horrible today, so am now just sat here crying about how selfish I am and how complicated and **** and unfair life is.
    :jumphug:

    (Original post by james1211)
    Well the interview went pretty well, think i might be in with a chance.

    Hope everyone is feeling alright this evening.
    That's great! Hope you're feeling proud of yourself.

    (Original post by asdfgah)
    Planning to be honest with therapist about flashback related things today. Scared. But I do also know that it's the only real way forward, because I'm treading water right now and it's not hugely pleasant.
    Good luck, and well done about the whole being adult, honest and mature thing. :awesome:
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    Probably didnt help that my darling boyfriend was snoring in my ear
    But yeah just couldnt sleep, and didnt know where my sleeping pills were
    Aww bless him, it's his way of telling you in his sleep how much he cares about you
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    (Original post by superwolf)

    :hugs: Have you been to your disability support office or personal tutor? They might be able to sort student support services out a bit and get them to give you your smaller room.
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    Hey Thanks for your reply. Last exam season my 'academic tutor' (sort of a essay marking/feedback tutor, not my personal tutor) and the department's general welfare tutor managed to set me up with an individual room for my last exam after I had a bit of a meltdown with them just before my second-to-last exam, (my academic tutor actually walked me to that exam to make sure I went because I was waffling on about being simultaneously desperate to complete it and desperate to avoid it) but they said they can't do it 'unofficially' again, so I had to arrange with the exams office/student support for next year.

    Mental health support won't do a thing until they have a GP letter.

    GP won't send a letter without me coming in for an appointment (even implied several appointments, because she says it isn't 'urgent' as my next exams are not for months yet)

    So much for sorting it out before term starts again and before I have other things to be stressed about!

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    Hey Thanks for your reply. Last exam season my 'academic tutor' (sort of a essay marking/feedback tutor, not my personal tutor) and the department's general welfare tutor managed to set me up with an individual room for my last exam after I had a bit of a meltdown with them just before my second-to-last exam, (my academic tutor actually walked me to that exam to make sure I went because I was waffling on about being simultaneously desperate to complete it and desperate to avoid it) but they said they can't do it 'unofficially' again, so I had to arrange with the exams office/student support for next year.

    Mental health support won't do a thing until they have a GP letter.

    GP won't send a letter without me coming in for an appointment (even implied several appointments, because she says it isn't 'urgent' as my next exams are not for months yet)

    So much for sorting it out before term starts again and before I have other things to be stressed about!

    :rolleyes:
    To be honest I'd change GP - from the sounds of it she's a bit of a dimwit. I can understand your wanting to get things sorted soon - I was having a terrible time getting plenty of extensions on my dissertation's preliminary deadlines, but not one for the actual hand in date, and it was really stressing me out even though it was months in advance. Why was it you couldn't get a GP appointment, are you away somewhere? I'm sure there'll be a way round it somehow, it's just annoying that it's putting so much stress on you in the meantime. :console:
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    So today I was honest with my therapist about flashback stuff. Like, totally honest. Felt like I got something out of it, though we had to stop talking about it pretty quickly because I had a flashback. But we talked around the general area and I think it was helpful.
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    I'm miles away from home and my sister has been rushed to hospital. I literally don't know what to do.

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    To be honest I'd change GP - from the sounds of it she's a bit of a dimwit. I can understand your wanting to get things sorted soon - I was having a terrible time getting plenty of extensions on my dissertation's preliminary deadlines, but not one for the actual hand in date, and it was really stressing me out even though it was months in advance. Why was it you couldn't get a GP appointment, are you away somewhere? I'm sure there'll be a way round it somehow, it's just annoying that it's putting so much stress on you in the meantime. :console:
    Yeah I'm away for the next 2 months...I even spoke to her on the phone but that's apparently not good enough.

    I'd consider changing, but then I'd have to go through the whole 'explaining everything' yet again...and I thought about registering as a temporary patient where I am now to speak to a GP I used to see before (over 2 years ago now though) but I can't see that working out either, really.

    Like you said it is incredibly annoying that this is stressing me out, even though it was supposed to be a way of reducing stress slightly in the long run!

    I've finally admitted that I do struggle more than I previously let on, and picked out things that can be *easily* changed to make specific situations better, but the people who can make these things happen just don't seem to want to listen to any reasoning whatsoever!

    ...and people say I can be irrational at times...
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    (Original post by ParadoxSocks)
    I'm miles away from home and my sister has been rushed to hospital. I literally don't know what to do.

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    (Original post by danny111)
    Hey, call your parents or the hospital she has been sent to. Really hope she is fine, do you know if it's an accident or does she have a condition?
    It's her diabetes. I think she's okay but she hates being alone in the hospital. Called her partner and was told they're watching her closely because her blood pressure is through the roof but they're ready if anything happens.

    Got the evening off from volunteering so can at least stay in my room to get updates. Feeling super stressed so not really feeling capable of handling screaming teens tonight.

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    (Original post by Noodlzzz)
    Messaged my care co-ordinator that I'm struggling since leaving hospital. Feel like a failure
    Not a failure at all. Really proud of you for telling your care coordinator. That can't have been easy but you did the right thing :yep:

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    (Original post by superwolf)
    Can't fault you on that logic! :nah: Maybe get one of your minions to row you about then. If minionless, suggest you acquire some.
    I used to have minions, back when I was at school. Now I don't really have any - I just have people who owe me big time for making my life **** and ruining my mental health (i.e. people I should really sue someday)

    I do like the idea of having minions again though

    Someone call for MHSS dating services? :flutter:
    :teehee: My parents have a very specific marriage criteria for me, so good luck with finding anyone for me :teehee:

    (Original post by asdfgah)
    So today I was honest with my therapist about flashback stuff. Like, totally honest. Felt like I got something out of it, though we had to stop talking about it pretty quickly because I had a flashback. But we talked around the general area and I think it was helpful.
    VERY proud of you hun :lovehug: :kissing2: :yep:
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    (Original post by ParadoxSocks)
    It's her diabetes. I think she's okay but she hates being alone in the hospital. Called her partner and was told they're watching her closely because her blood pressure is through the roof but they're ready if anything happens.

    Got the evening off from volunteering so can at least stay in my room to get updates. Feeling super stressed so not really feeling capable of handling screaming teens tonight.

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    What do you volunteer as if I may ask?

    I can see why she doesn't like being alone in a hospital, I don't like being in one period. But sounds good that they are ready, sounds like she is in good hands.
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    (Original post by superwolf)
    Someone call for MHSS dating services? :flutter:



    Some jokes never get old eh?
    MHSS dating services is already up and running

    also, i hear your more wolf like everytime i hear a story about you

    (Original post by superwolf)
    :hugs: Mice are friendly creatures for hugging and playing with. :yes: No need to be scared of them. Have you spoken to your doctor about these experiences - things like this seem to trouble you quite often. :console:

    Really sorry to hear about your uncle.
    mice definitely arnt friendly :nah:
    especially not when youv had them thrown at you and everything :sad:

    no, its a silly thing isnt it?

    also thankyou, hes still going, hopefully he keeps on, but i dunno

    (Original post by superwolf)
    Glad to hear she's ok, and I hope things improve for her soon.
    yeah, ill update everyone when i can, but at the moment shes safe

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    Aww bless him, it's his way of telling you in his sleep how much he cares about you
    hahaha, yeah course it is
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    (Original post by Sultana)
    Sometime when you're free can we talk on skype about it? Making plans across a forum doesn't quite seem real and i need real
    Sure. PM me sometime when you're not busy and I'll come on skype.

    (Original post by ParadoxSocks)
    I'm miles away from home and my sister has been rushed to hospital. I literally don't know what to do.

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    (Original post by PonchoKid)
    MHSS dating services is already up and running

    also, i hear your more wolf like everytime i hear a story about you



    mice definitely arnt friendly :nah:
    especially not when youv had them thrown at you and everything :sad:

    no, its a silly thing isnt it?

    also thankyou, hes still going, hopefully he keeps on, but i dunno



    yeah, ill update everyone when i can, but at the moment shes safe
    This is very true.

    Who's been telling you stories now? :teehee:

    But I'm getting lovely pet mice which won't be at all scary and only want to be your friends. :puppyeyes:

    Well it seems to upset/disturb you a lot, so I'd definitely think it was worth mentioning. Do you actually see the mice, like a hallucination, or is it more like your imagination going into overdrive?

    Hope he's ok.
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    Almost had to accompany my brother to the hospital I was taken to when I attempted suicide 2 years ago. Managed to get out of it but am kind of freaked out. Feel very strange.
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    Psychologist mentioned hospital a load. :cry: :afraid: I told him I'm not going and that's final which he accepted but now I've got to deal with friday and I still don't have a plan. Don't know what I'm going to do, I'm so scared of a certain thing happening but I'm too much of a wuss to stop it once and for all. I'm trying to decide if to tell my wife to hide things I could use but if I tell her it puts her in extreme danger so I'm guessing no.
 
 
 
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